Nov 16, 2012
may 15, 2005: Journal Entries I don't even remember....
"I cry a lot, and I have these thoughts..... my head is telling me to do crazy things. I thought about taking a bottle of pills.... I hit myself, I cut myself, I pull my hair out, I scream and I yell and I constantly want to throw things, I just want to hurt myself more...... Is this what recovery is supposed to be like? is this why people say that I am doing so well, is this why people tell me that I look good, is this why they tell me that I'm not fat? is this their definition of normal? because if it is, everyone is fucking screwed up."
