Okay so. Take it from someone who's spirit has been utterly broken by Tumblr culture for the last year and something to the point where i could hardly do anything because i was too busy spiraling, and who's just very recently started getting back into volunteering, activism and the sort.
Yes, it's shit to have internet leftists screaming at you to do something, now when you barely have it in you to get out of bed and you want to die. And not only is it hard, but it is also unjust, and you actually do deserve better than to constantly second-guess what your actual level of ability is when you know you're past it. And yes, it can actually take an insane amount of mental resources that often go unnoticed in those discussions to bring yourself to engage emotionally with other people's horror stories when you're at a point where you can barely take care of yourself, and if you're in the wrong headspace, being told how much other people have it worse than you while you're going through hell can genuinely make you start thinking you should hurt yourself, which is horrible, and if you're going through this, you should first and foremost focus on preventing this line of thought from developing further and on keeping yourself safe. There's a reason they tell you to put the oxygen mask on yourself first on airplanes.
But.
Please don't let this create the false dichotomy in your brain that frames helping others as fundamentally incompatible with taking care of your own mental well being just because the internet fanatics on your phone telling you to do one are making you neglect the other. Not only are you capable of doing both at the same time, but here's the other thing too- in the real world, outside, activists and organizers who are going out and doing stuff tend to actually want you to take care of yourself as much as anyone. Really, they do. They typically don't think you were up to this point a horrible enabler by laying on the couch and being too burnt out to join, and they typically don't see you as repenting or redeeming your soul by getting up and helping. To most people who actually do this stuff, you're just another human being who deserves to be happy. This is a sentiment you get from online leftist communities, not activist movements.
Just in case you needed to hear that today.