i think im really struggling to figure out how to blend my worlds together. at college im a cool poly foxgirl whos getting good at at writing fiction and making art and whose life is centered around her nonnormative loves, including her multiple partners. and then i go home and im -- well im still all of that but my family doesn't know im poly and when people ask you about your love life they tend not to ask about your best friends and my extended family wont even ask about the stories i write or the theater i make and it feels like im just reduced to who i was in high school. theres not even anyone else queer in my family. and i want to be this cool poly artist all the time but i dont know how to be that around my family. would they get it if i tried explaining my loves to them? do i want them to know? how does having partners meet the family work when i have no romantic partners and multiple nonnormative ones? how do family trips work? having partners visit for the holidays? HOW DO I BE POLY? no one ever explained it to me. last time i saw my extended family i hadnt seen them in months and they never even asked how i've been.
I’ve been super busy; but I’ve got some time and I’ve digested what happened in DR. I’ll put everything under a Keep Reading for those who use mobile and those who don’t have tags blacklisted.
What I will say here is: good story. I just hope it gets the UX/Back cover treatment.
If you are brave enough to read past the Keep Reading; be warned, its very rambly as I’m not great with organising my thoughts properly.
I’m actually really surprised I predicted the story to some extent!
I said in my Dark Road Daemons post:
“Learning that there was a character called Baldr- I think I know where this story is going. Baldr is going to be killed/struck down- and I suspect it’s going to be Xehanort doing it. As it’s Baldr- A Norse god so beloved he’s said to give off radiant light, killed by Loki that brought upon the beginnings of Ragnarok. How Xehanort will do it, willingly or not, I don’t know, but the story of Dark Road is still new, and there’s lots of possibilities.”
Well; it seems that the roles of ‘Loki’/Xehanort and Baldr were somewhat reversed! with Baldr being ‘antagonist’ and ‘Loki’ not.
It was kind of hard to watch Baldr being chained up like that, and even more so when Xehanort did strike him down- almost without hesitation it seemed.
The upper classmen were lots of fun too; I think my favourite of them was Vidar. when I saw a name pop up, I googled it to see what Norse myth they were from; with Vidar being the one who will strike the heart of Fenrir in revenge of a slain Odin.
I liked that, that characterisation was turned into the Vidar we got, with wanting to purge the world and take vengeance on the Darkness for slaying his friends.
Staying on the Norse theme; as soon as I found out Baldr’s sister’s name, that's when I started to feel nervous, since in the myth its Hoder that kills Baldr by Loki’s doing-- and we almost saw that take place when Hoder placed herself in Xehanort’s heart and confronted Baldr- only then to attack him.
but wow; I’m getting way too excited about Norse myth and Parallels there's a few more I could list off, I think!
I will say; I really, really like Bragi. He was on my team a lot mainly because of his protect ability. I thought he was a cool character...
But as soon as he said ‘As If’ I was ready to throw my phone across the room. I couldn’t believe Luxu hijacked him. I don’t even know if he was Luxu all along or he hijacked Bragi in the world of the dead. Now if there’s a new character I like, I’m going to have trust issues because I don’t know if that’s just Luxu hijacking another person or not, haha...
There’s so many moments I liked; from them exploring familiar worlds, to the class interacting with one another; or the constant making-fun-of Eraqus, it was great.
I’m not usually an emotional person- but I did have a catch in my throat at the end where Eraqus also bought flowers to the graves... and that Xehanort said that he heard him crying all night for a week...
and seeing them all get struck down by Baldr... it hurt, especially Vor, since I grew attached to her; it hurt when she left Eraqus and Xehanort with Vidar, and it hurt when she died.
BUT; getting to a scene I was excited to see- Vanitas actually talking to Xehanort! and it seems Xehanort wasn’t just using Vanitas as a ‘pure darkness’ to make a X-blade, but also to see if he could track the other darknesses down. AND my suspicions are also raised that Vanitas just wants to be his own person; Darkness or not, I hope that means that in the future, he’ll be alongside the ‘Heros’; since it'd be hypocritical for Sora to want Roxas to be his own person, but not Vanitas- just saying.
There’s a million other things I’d like to type about, but honestly, I think I’ve rambled enough.
One more thing: Master Odin sucks and if he were a better person, Baldr would never have opened his heart to darkness.
he may or may not get back with his ex and I still like him but my dumb brain wants to rebound and I don't wanna do that again because 2017 was just back to back with a few people because I finally got the courage to use tinder and when it didn't work out I got sad and immediately went on the hunt to fill the void and that's not healthy. Then I didn't talk to anyone for a whole year. Then this new dude came around. Now he doesn't know what he wants. And this guy I haven't talked to in a long time is trying to get slide into my insta dms and idk if he wants to try to be friends again or if he misses me and if it's the latter my dumb ass is gonna go with it but then if other dude decides he's not gonna be with his ex then I would be in the same situation that he's in which is why I can't be fully mad at him because it feels like something that I would do but the difference is that I would only be in this situation because I have been told he doesn't know what he wants and that I'm free to talk to other people if the situation arises when his situation was that I fully liked him and he just ran into his ex and became distant from me bc he doesn't know what he wants now which put me in this situation sigh but old dude probably just wants to become friends again and I'm reading into the situation too much because I'm sad
Its been three hours they're not going to talk to me again tonight
I mean duh, they're gonna talk to their s/o until they fall asleep and completely forget about me. When they said “can I talk to you when I'm done” they didn't mean “I will make sure that I won't drag it out when a lull would be more appropriate, so that I can keep my promise and come back to talk to you, my best friend”
And they would never mean that anyways because I'm not their best friend
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I had my first uni interview for Illustration at Plymouth yesterday and I was so anxious about it but after 20 minutes of the guy looking through my work and chatting to me he was like "shouldn't strictly say this but I want to offer you a place... Basically if you want a place at Plymouth it's yours" Literally can't believe he liked me and my work so much that quickly ahhh
I care a lot about it but I also don't care very much at all? Like I am constantly worrying and wanting to do my best but I think I'm too afraid of making mistakes to even start
and fucking Smalldog is whining to go out and it's so cold and I took her out like 2 hours ago aufsojdkmg,
But why the fuck am I sad, I'm currently upset? sad? scared? to the point where I'm in physical pain and I'm tired of it like please stop I'm just trying, I shouldn't deserve this kind of divine punishment
what the hell did I do what did I do what did I do I don't want this what the fuck
