So im the type of girl who seems to always get hurt. This has caused me to be really against getting close to people and ive always had this problem for as long as i remember, but oddly enough one boy comes along and changes everything about what i though about life. He has taught me that its okay to let people in because im gonna get hurt by people i just have to push trough the pain to find the ones who wont. Hes taught me that its okay to be scared of things but not to let it control me. So many things that i could go on and on about. Most of all though..hes taugh me to love. Yes i said love because before him I can honestly say i loved my mom, Brother,Sisters and Step-dad and that was no joke the jist of the people i loved because i knew that they wouldnt try to hurt me intentionally.Now i have added one person to the list and its most deffinetly him, i know i wont ever fully get past trusting people and letting them in or things like that but i know its okay to talk to people about stuff and not worrying so much about the judgment or them hurting me because im surrounded by an amazing family and one amazing boy friend as well as some great friends. Im finally letting go of the past and becoming truely happy not the fake crap ive been pretending to be for years now...smiling and not faking feels good and ive missed it so much. Anyways if anyones reading this i ope you can at least take on thing from all of this...Learn to let go and learn to love. try not to pretend because its only going to make you even more unhappy reach out sometimes you never know you might find someone to help you out
