fitness monster.
seriously i have been working out like a mother fucker! i ran today in the 70 degree heat and it wasn't even 11 am yet. i had found my great-grandmother's scale in a box of her belongings earlier this week and my grandma made me stand on it to make sure it would work.
*now, i refuse to use scales because they are ridiculous and only make people self-conscious. they are pointless. the only time i step on one of this shit-contraptions is at the doctors but only because i cannot refuse to if i wish to receive services from them haha...duh.
**and just to go down memory lane, when i owned a scale, i was probably 14-15 or so, i lived in this huge two story house for a year. i had this problem of checking my weight every hour, so one day i decided to throw it out the window of my two story bedroom. (:
we lived in a court on a hill and we were the last house so it tumbled down the motherfucking hill. i felt great when i went down to go see it and it was all dented and cracked from the rocks. i think it might still be there... heh<3
so yea ANYWAYS, i weighed myself to humor my grandma and it said i weighed 4 pounds less than normal. unless this shit is broken, i was like fuck yea! i've been stuffing my face, having back pains, analyzing that maybe i was having a growth spurt, and who da knowwwn, i lost weight.
okay, so this was pretty much a pointless post. i do not think i need to lose weight but i just adore how my body is starting to form with more muscle. i feel powerful. i feel no self-consciousness. i love this feeling.