rewatched 2.02 for the millionth time last night and I can't handle aziraphale at the end he makes me so sad like. honey get OUT of there heaven is HURTING YOU
I fucking ache for him genuinely. he's so twisted up in what he thinks is Good that his natural instinct to love and protect the world and the things and people in it is suffocated under a billion layers of repression and guilt. he is capable of such deep joy and affection but the moment he catches himself feeling anything for the Wrong Reasons he makes himself small and sad again. he's so afraid all the time. and god, he must be so angry.
aziraphale please go apeshit it'll be good for you. but not like, break up with your partner and go corporate apeshit. like blow up the heavenly host apeshit
