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Interesting aspect about my poor internal communication compared to other parts is that I end up being more open to parts' emotions/thoughts than parts with better communication.

There are parts who get upset on behalf of other parts that ends up accidentally dismissing their feelings (eg, "you shouldn't feel xyz because I know why you feel like that and--") where I tend to approach it more in the sense of it not being my business to tell parts how to feel/think. The general protectiveness I as a whole tend to have when another person I care about is harmed doesn't get activated for me. It's not personal. Or, well, cognitively yes it is personal but conflicting/""incorrect"" feelings and thoughts are not something I take personally.

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It's going to startle me so reminder for future me that the nationwide emergency phone test occurs on the same day as wheelchair eval.

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Remember how I said that providing public resources for RA survivors is very difficult because of the dangers involved and how people shouldn't just be handing out this stuff without thinking. Including that it can cause people to die.

These are warnings from 2 separate books, and just about every resource on RA will have these.

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Very funny to me that I have two epi pins as someone who has severe allergies. Just like my epipens.

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Happened upon a book published in 1991 on DID, talking about different presentations based on abuse type and dissociative ability.

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@ anon please DM me if you'd like to talk. No pressure.

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I love this kind of doctor because every time I go to one it doesn't matter whether they're rude or nice or if this is my first appointment, they take one look at me and immediately try to stomp my immune system down with the strongest shit they have.

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Thinking about causing issues in the DID fandom again.