“5 Times the Love”(Keren of course)
He’d come here to kill him, a knife in his hand. His hair was tangled and large, his eyes sunken in his head. But then he’d seen him, and he stopped. He couldn’t do it then. He stood there, waiting, as he was raved at. Keren couldn’t help but smile, putting the knife on the table.
He was sitting at the table, watching breakfast being made. He kept to himself mainly now. A brush painfully torn through his hair, his meds labelled for each morning. Falkor was just moving through the kitchen, half ignoring his existence. Keren smiled to himself, just watching. Shifter may hate him, but that’s okay. He deserved it.
His face was buried in Falkor’s stomach, just lying there after a particularly hard day. Keren couldn’t imagine being anywhere else when things became...too much for him to handle. For him to understand. His head hurt, and he felt sick, but Falkor was there, with his arms wrapped around him. Safe, sound. One hand carding through black hair and a hum low in his chest. Keren melted easily.
He watched him pick up a small toy and move it around the room, letting the little plastic horse roam across the table. A small girl, their small girl, with bright red hair and intelligent green eyes giggled and clapped. They wore two matching grins, and Keren smiled lazily, lying on the couch and watching. He wanted to move closer, but didn’t want to interrupt. So he sat there, watching everything he always wanted sit in front of him.
He felt old, tired. He’d been fighting everything for so long. Now he just lying here, grey streaks in black hair, looking at old photos of someone he’d never see again while his daughter did homework at the table near him. He was crying, but it wasn’t all sad. No.Every picture brought a little more love, each one another reminder of everything that ever went right. He was smiling. He’d see him again in the SummerLands, and until then he saw him in each smile their girl gave. In every meal he cooked. In every small toy she grew out of. Love can be painful. But he found that the best ones lasted beyond that pain.
