#redserpent42

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To love me means also loving to hear all the raging thoughts in my head at one in the morning when all of my frustrations suddenly burst; it also means embracing all the quirkiness wrapped around my entirety like adoring how beautiful the stars up above midnight or how the clouds move in a slow motion to form warriors and knights; it may as well mean coming with me at Mcdonald’s when I crave for some fries and sundae at two in the morning; it’s also defined as listening to my senseless and repetitious stories about my dreams, fantasies and everyday life. To love me means swearing that you would listen to the songs I would tell to you in the middle of the day because I assure you, you’d be hearing from me talking about them from time to time. Loving someone like me isn’t easy for I am someone scarred badly in the past. My whole system is composed of heartaches, pains, sorrows and miseries—I am imperfectly flawed but that made me who I am. To love me is to embrace those imperfections stitched through my veins. To love me means allowing me to have solitude once in a while since I have these moments that I want to shut my world down from everybody else; I have those dark times that I never wanted to talk to anybody at all and just want to lock myself in my own world. Just give me some time to think, at the end of the day I will come back to you. To love me is to tell me how much you care for me even in the slightest way—I will surely appreciate that even my form of appreciation and gratitude is to tell how corny or annoying you are, but deep down, your words mean a lot and warmed my heart. To love me means staying with me no matter how messy and difficult I could be. All I ever want is someone who will stand right behind me during my darkest and worst moments of my life. To love me is to tell me your thoughts and opinions about the things I keep on telling you about even they mean nothing to you. To love me is to allow me to grow with you as a being physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. I am a complicated and difficult person. I am crazy, wild, freak, easily hurt and gullible. So tell me you love me when you only mean it. I don’t have time for some franks or what. I have had enough of heartbreaks in my past. I am aging and all I ever want for now is a stable and long-lasting relationship that would make me choose to stay no matter how many rocks were thrown at us or no matter how turbulent and bumpy the roads may get. To love me means a little bit of sacrifice. But I can guarantee you that I could make you feel you’re the best person in the world and you didn’t make the wrong choice by choosing me over them. With me, I can make you feel disconnected from the rest of the galaxy. I will surely make tons of efforts for our relationship to keep going and last. It will be a tough ride for the both of us but I can assure you that it will be worth it and filled with so much fun. To love me means needing and wanting me like the way I do to you.

redserpent42, To Love Someone Like me

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Letting someone in your life again is one of the hardest things to do most especially when sorrows and pains victimized you. You are torn between crumbling the giant walls you engineered around you or not since you don't know if that person is worth the risk. You are troubled if it will still be the same as the past. Being broken in love is one of the most painful experiences and you do not want to suffer again. But you want to try. Again. Despite the fears, worries and anxieties clouding you that it will be the same thing once more. You want to give that person a chance. Why? Because of hope. You are hopeful that it will be a much better kind of love than before.

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• Let go of the past. Keep moving forward. You keep on holding onto this for such a very long time. It will never do you good. See a much brighter future ahead of you. • Learn to forget and forgive. Stop holding grudges for other people. You will never ever have a peace of mind if you stay that way. • Start accepting that peoples’ feelings towards you can actually change. It wasn’t their fault(s) in the first place if they feel something more than friendship. Deal with it, moron. • Be thankful for the people who keep on showing how important you are to them even most of the time, you keep on taking them for granted. You are so blessed to have friends like them. It is not every day that you will cross paths to being like them. • Make time for your old friends. I guess it will do you no harm if you catch up with them, it will bring you tons of euphoria, instead. Work isn’t the only thing in the world, keep that in mind. • Do not forget who your true friends really are. Those persons who stood behind you in your darkest times when nobody’s around. You owe them that much. • Halt from thinking that you are a walking catastrophe or disaster in the making. There’s no such thing as that. You are just as stupid as hell in handling your own emotions. • Stop pushing people away; most especially those who really care for you. You’re a dumbass for doing so. Remember that no man’s an island. Solitude is fun but not for a lifetime. • Remember that it’s nice to meet new people. But it doesn’t necessarily mean that you have to forget those people who were there for you ever since the world began. • Keep these notes in your head. Everything is just a test of character. It will soon pass. Everything will be better. Everything will be alright. Just hold on.

Ten Notes to Self

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The book of 2015 already closed. That year has really been roller coaster to me; taking me to the utmost state of euphoria and pulling me down to the deepest phase of blue. Since I am already in the Chapter 22 of my life, here are the 22 lessons I’ve learned (so far) in that year: 1. Any romantic involvement to someone isn’t as important just like what you think it is for you to be cloaked with a genuine sense of joy and delight. Happiness can still be found even you’re not in a relationship. It’s just up to you to find out how. 2. Professionalism can actually help you survive and win a battle against your so-called opponent(s). 3. Backstabbing is someone else’s specialty You have to be extra careful. 4. Best and worst things in your life come without knocking. They come to you in a surprisingly strange manner. You’ve got nothing to do but to accept and deal them. 5. Some people will always be rude to you no matter how kind you are to them. Some of them may take your kindness as a sign of weakness. Some may even abuse it. But it isn’t a logical reason for you to give up the act of doing kindness. It’s not your loss after all. Just kill them with your kindness anyway. 6. Only few people will embrace your shadow after figuring out your darkest sides. You’ve got to treasure them. 7. Trust is such a precious thing to give to people. Yet some will still fail to value it. They will break it without realizing that they are breaking your heart as well. Once you trust someone, you’re vulnerable. Some may even use that fragility against you for their own sake. 8. You keep on doubting yourself but people around you see the capabilities and potentials in you. You just have to believe in yourself akin to the manner they trust you. Trust yourself. Keep on telling you can do it. What lies ahead might be fun, exciting, beautiful and exhilarating. 9. 20s is the stage where you perpetually and constantly worry and wonder if you’re about to make or break it; if the road you’re taking leads you to the place your dreams can actually happen. 10. Money sounds sweet. But it isn’t the most important thing on earth, It can’t even give you a genuine euphoria. Family, friends, God, memories, laughter, and books can. Sometimes it’s not always about the elegance and flamboyance. Simple things will always be one of the best things in life. 11. Sometimes you have to remove the people who keep on depriving you from having the happiness you always long and deserve. You really have to. 12. You have to let go of the things in the past you have held into for such a long time. You should keep moving forward. 13. Learning and music are both essential and must be added to the basic needs of any human being to survive in this world. 14. Patience is indeed a virtue. Be patient. And the moments you’ve been waiting for will come to you eventually. 15. Insecurities have their own ways of killing the beauty in someone’s heart. Sad but true. 16. People are good at judging others without knowing the whole story. They pretend that they know all about you when in reality, they don’t. 17. Overthinking can actually lead to frustrations and non-existing problems. Stop doing it. Life is simple. Go along with it. 18. The success of others and high-profile people isn’t the measure and basis of your own success. Stop comparing yourself to them. It can just make you feel small. Define your own meaning of success. 19. Stop complaining. You have more than enough. It’s up to you how to handle them. Always be grateful to whatever you have. Some people don’t even have a portion of your possession. You’re so much blessed. 20. Best people in the world are free. Once you meet someone like them, value them. This society is filled with fake people. 21. The world is beautiful. There’s nothing wrong with it. There is something wrong with some human beings. Sadly, they make this earth sick and ugly. 22. We live in the consequences of our choices.

22 Lessons of 2015

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a. Start living a healthy life style. Avoid eating in fast food chains. Your body is a sacred temple that you must take care of. b. Save money as much as you can. You’ll never know what lies to the future. c. Buy the things you ONLY need. Do not be an impulsive buyer. d. Forgive people who betrayed, disappointed and betrayed you. They all deserve forgiveness. And might as well forgive yourself. e. Learn to follow your to-do-lists. Have a strict time management. You’ve wasted so much time. And it is something essential that you can’t take back but you keep on wasting. f. Make some time to your old friends. Stop being workaholic once in a while. Your work will not be there for you in times of need but your friends will. g. Do not stress yourself out with the things you shouldn’t be stressing yourself with. h. Do not make your life tough. Go with the flow. Adapt to changes. Life is simple if you just know the tricks and secrets. i. Stop thinking too much. Overthinking will just stress you out more than you really are. j. Move on from the past. Dwelling there will do you no good.

My New Year’s Resolution

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This is how to unlove someone who will never see your worth as a being: A. Stop daydreaming about the two of you even the other party 'shows' signals of being 'interested' in you. STOP. Let him/her admits his/her true feelings for you directly and sincerely. B. Delete all his/her messages in your inbox so you won't have anything to re-read; reliving those old conversations can create more false hopes in you. C. Hinder yourself from extending concern and affection through simple things. It may seem hard at first since you are in love and you want to show you care but little by little, you can do it. D. Let pains and heartaches swallow you for a couple of days. They are parts of the feelings. They are necessary. Cry if you must. Feelings make us whole, torn, broken and alive. But all the storms pass, right? E. Write down your feelings. Scribble the agonizing pains, tormenting anxieties and troublesome worries 'til you feeling nothing at all. Burn them. Watch the flames char the paper. Watch them burn. Enjoy the scene. Imagine that they are your actual feelings being scorched to death. F. Indulge yourself. Have a 'Me Time.' You deserve it-- truly deserve it. You may be in pains-- deep pains but that didn't stop you from having happiness. Do thing things which can stuff you with joy and delight.  G. Go out with your friends and laugh the hell out as if tomorrow isn't coming. Enjoy the day with them. Seize the day for you to forget about the one you love. H. Pray and talk to the Creator. Lift your worries, pains and anxieties to Him.  Don't blame Him for the pains you are currently suffering. Instead, believe. Look at the bright side that there's something wonderful that may happen after all of that.  I. Control yourself from checking his/her Facebook and other social networking accounts. Do not stalk again. Sometimes, ignorance is really bliss. The things you may stumble into can cause more heartaches to you.  Longing for that someone to be yours is totally unbearable; fiendish as hell. That it actually kills you little by little and it feels like pains are alive to gnaw at every fiber of you. If you can help yourself, you can succeed in unloving that someone.

This is to unlove someone

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1. True friendship remains even you haven't seen one another for weeks, months or even years. Everything seems to be the same; except for the endless story-telling about what happened over the course of time. 2. Eye contacts and body languages are more than enough to understand what the other thinks toward another person. Everybody is sensitive about each other's feelings even no word has been uttered. 3. You don't have to be with one another all the time just to show you care. A simple remembering about the memories you shared counts. A simple 'Hey' text message is completely appreciated. 4. Each one of you shares a private joke to the mutual person you all dislike; you are all fond of giving absurd nicknames to your not-so-good-acquaintances. 5. Picture taking is very essential in every bonding moment you share wherein you can show your craziest sides without worrying about how you look like. 6. You are all different from one another but friendship binds all of you to be the 'same'. 7. Trash talking is rampant. Despite that, nobody gets out of the mood. Instead, that person(s) will fire up the most hideous and disgusting reply. 8. You can laugh the hell out 'til your jaw aches-- ignoring all the people around you. You won't even give a damn about your looks because all you want is happiness. 9. Everyone of you gets disconnected to the real world since you all created your world where happiness is the main component. 10. Silence among you is comfortable. 11. It really lasts whether you like it or not. Friendship is forever. Friendship is love., Friendship is magical.

Eleven Things About True Friendship

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1. I keep on checking my phone from day to night for a message from you that surely will not come. 2. Please, don't you dare to forget about me because it will surely break my heart. 3. Don't tell me that you no longer care about me after all that we've been through. 4. I missed you... a lot. To the extent I dreamt of you at night. 5. Can we be like as before? 6. I love you. I need you here in my life. I need you right here next to me. Please be here. 7. I write about you every time I got a grip of my paper and pen. 8. Do you think about me too as much I do? I am going crazy by simply thinking of you. , 9. Do you worry when I haven't dropped any message in your inbox or e-mail? 10. You're all I want so please be mine. 11. I got jealous when you're getting more attached to someone rather than me. 12. I am selfish because I want all of you attention. 13. Sorry if I annoy you a lot. 14. Thank you for all the memories you've given me-- memories that will never happen again.

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