Colaboration between me and Dexter to talk about (my) exomemories
First of all, for me, exomemories are memories that represent a sort of "past life" that was lived by an alter before becoming a part of a system/splitting.
With exomemories, there's times that exotrauma is also present. Exotrauma is trauma that was experienced in this sort of "past life".
Exotrauma is also most of the time, a reflection of the experiences and/or feelings that were physically experienced in the life of the system. It's a way for the brain to process the stuff it went through.
In my case, exomemories feel foggy, i used to remember more about my life, but then, i started forgetting before coming back from dormancy.
I remember a few things about my father, in my memories, he wasn't a bad guy or anything, but i have a feeling that that wasn't all to it, that there is stuff he did to me that was wrong. This is were Dexter and X take place in the story.
X is the alter that has the most control over the system, but he never fronts, he's only present in the innerworld, he can control who has the memories and he is mostly considered "emotionless", this is part of his role, as he has all the knowledge about our trauma. X made Dexter hold MY memories. So it knows the things i don't remember.
- Reeve (he/him)
Reeve (he/him)
Exactly! And it's also weird because that's the same thing that happened to me, except it's Sam who has my memories. We personally don't know nor understand completely the reasoning behind X, but it is easy to assume it was to lower the impact of the memories, i have the memories of Reeve because for me, they aren't "real" and Sam has MY memories because for him, they also aren't "real". I have gotten many clues as to what our trauma is (because i don't have those memories) thanks to Reeve's exomemories and exotrauma. So it's safe to say that exomemories are a useful way for the brain to better understand what it went through, through someone else's eyes.
- Dexter (it/its)
Dexter (it/its)