"You don't have to be alone." - from Namjoon obviously
“Are you fucking kidding me?”
Jungkook doesn’t lose his temper often. He has better things to do than give in to anger, and many of those things consume all of that energy and more. He just doesn’t have the time or the patience for the backlash of anger and the emotions connected to it. But now? Now he’s angry, and he already hates being angry, but to be angry in front of the others, to allow that negativity to rear its ugly head for anything other than a in the midst of a firefight… No, he doesn’t like it. At all.
But Namjoon has pushed his buttons, and all too well, and now that the dam has been cracked, it all comes out in a terrifying torrent of emotion.
“I have always been alone, Namjoon,” Jungkook hisses, hands curled into white-knuckled fists that tremble with the effort it takes him to keep them in place. “From the moment they realized I was smarter than children twice my age, I was alone. I skipped so many grades in high school that they had to put me on textbooks in my seat just so I could see over the desk. I suffered jokes about recess and naptime for the entirety of it. In college, I had to climb the shelves in the library to get the books I needed because my classmates thought I was a freak and wanted nothing to do with me. I did every single group project alone.”
Jungkook’s voice drops, and there’s a painful tremor in it, too much like the one in his hands, and his back burns like it’s on fire as he continues. “In the academy, I was treated like a child until the day I outshot everyone in my class. They pulled so many dirty tricks to send me home that I nearly died. My partners in the States and here in Korea babied me until the moment I proved I could handle shooting someone in cold blood to save an innocent life or to save theirs. I still get shit from my precinct. Even now. I am the only one here that can possibly do raids alone, and even then, I am treated like a child because of my age and supposed inexperience.”
The silence between them rings, and just like that, Jungkook’s anger abates, leaving him weak, and quiet, and frowning. It’s a quiet that lingers as he adds, too soft and too cemented, “I have always been alone, Namjoon. I will always be alone. I can be surrounded by hundreds of people – thousands, millions, in one of the busiest cities in the world – and I will still be alone.”