Kinda a sad post : Scenes that hit too close to home for me
Kris beating up Soul : although I don't have another entity controlling me , my emotions tend to take control over me , not only have I actually shambled around like a zombie during my breakdowns but also punch the wall or throw something
Jax and Pomni Argue : I've actually yelled at people who have tried to help me in a very simillar manner because I try not to seem weak or because their version of "helping me" might end up causing more trouble
Stolas and Blitzo fight : This Is THE scene that is most accurate to my life , two years ago I got into a simillar fight with my (now Ex) boyfriend , I openely cussed him out and despite my anger I had to try my hardest not to hurt him , I regretted it the moment I did it and yet I was never forgiven , I don't remember what I said or what happened all I remember was his eyes , holding back tears , frozen in fear , the first time I felt that much regret , but an apology wasn't enough
Clay in the Bar : if I've been stressed for a while I often vent/rant to others , or mention things they do that I don't like and often choke back my tears while doing so
Bojack drives his car into the pool : The pool just so happens to be a way I've thought of (you know) , just laying there and waiting
Dallas Death/Breakdown : If I were to lose all hope entirely my actions and fate would be simillar if not the exact same
Gregg talks to Mae : I've often had thoughts much like his and my serious talks can often be abrupt due to my negative thoughts always being in my mind
Ash tearing up : even when I'm given reasurrance or shown care I can't help but tear up , because after years of pain someone saying "it's not your fault" or "I'm here" or "It's okay" I can finally let it out
Legoshi's Instincts : sometimes when I breakdown I talk to myself and due to the state I'm in my thoughts aren't exactly helpful or positive , and I sometimes to act animalistic during these breakdowns , I've bitten my own arm countless times
Milo's Dream : sometimes when I sleep I dream that things are okay , that I'm happy , that someone I lost is back or I feel nostalgia and wonder "would it ever be the same again ?"
"Why Does Everyone Look At You Like That ?" : I've been hated , bullied or feared before throughout my whole life and sometimes my friends or family ask that exact question and not knowing the reason only makes the question hurt more to hear
Yes I have Anxiety , Deppression and Severe Anger Issues and although I just mentioned a lot of depressing things about my life and mental state don't let it ruin your mood or your view on me or my blogs , as of right now I'm okay and I hope you are too
