#release of thoughts

[buetyinthestruggle]

I started this page for me. I don’t journal because my hands ache when I write but It feels so good to pour your feelings out in a word document. Instead I choose here! 2026 has to be better then 2025!!

[naturallogofx]

[room1000yearswide]

I've met guys, and it went nowhere. I've watched guys that I wished I could have had something with go into relationships with other girls. I have been harassed all break by one guy who is the nicest, coolest guy, yet I didn't want anything to come out of it. Now that he's got the hint, he ignores me and it upsets me because I wanted to be friends with him. 

I feel like i'm at a point in my life that while yes, my living situation is going to be a lot different than it ever has been before, i'm still going to be lonely and watching everyone else live the lives that I want to live with the people I want to be associated with. 

I've never been so excited/scared/depressed/anxious in my entire life. I don't even understand why I am so emotional right now. None of this probably even makes any sense. I really, really, really, just want to be happy. I don't want to have to worry about friend problems, I don't want to feel lonely, and I need to get laid. I also can't stand how I look AT ALL anymore, and if I don't try to change myself now, its definitely going to have an effect on what are suppose to be the "best years of my life." 

I just needed to get this out somewhere. Anyway, carry on with your night.