being the boy’s fan experience
warning this is very TMI TMI TMI
THERE ARE UP TO 5 PHASES SHARED. second phase when i was a directioner. a very carrot ones. i hate pigeons. I don’t use spoons. i downloaded all their video diaries. the funny moment. and when people “oh do you know that niall like nandos.” i would literally blow up because they suck and they’re so left out. ahahaha. whatever and shut up. and then i forced myself to remember the songs lyric. blah blah.
before this phase i remember that when “what makes you beautiful’ came up on radio, i went like “ew. gays.” and i did not expect that i would totally heads over heels over them.
continue to the second phase
and then third phase i saw a picture of someone shared about them being gay. and i totally defended them like so hard. they said that “they boys don’t even know me.” i cried a freakin river. and then i told them that i’ve meet them with backstage passes and shit. that was the most embarrassing moment. I swear to god if i’d take it back i would. and then i made twitter account. i mentioned louis how are you then waited for his reply for the whole night. it was crazy.
the fourth phase : when ‘this is us’ was released, i watched them with my friends. and that next week is our biggest exam. which is very important for us to take in Malaysia. we have three of them actually. Sucks. i knowwwww. then blah blah blah i bought the album blah blah the books blah blah songs blah blah
and fifth phase : I still remember the time when they announced that they are coming to singapore. I was so happy because i thought that they would be in Malaysia too. Turned out they won't. Aha. Then i convinced my mom to let me go for the concert. By using my own money. Then nothing happen so i lost hope. Crazy. I know. Immature. I know. And then i watched shit load of the videos that the fandom shared. thinking about how would i be there. Having a backstage passes. Standing in the front row. Hugging them. Ugh. So much to imagine. And then i think that these things wont happen. Not even once.
Sixth phase : i started to give up on them slowly. Harry having a girlfriend, louis had a baby, niall and liam hahaha. And zayn just zayn(we say goodbye aszayn because he left). When they announced that zayn left. I cried for the whole week. And i have a hella lot of school works which i pretty much didn't do it. And being in a fandom is dumb and happy. You wont stop wishing about seeing them. You wont stop screenshoting their pictures everytime you see it. You wont stop fangirling. you won’t stop fighting. We’d slayed everytime. We won everything everytime. You wont stop everything. I decided to stop. all these things. But. Yes everybody. There is a 'but'. CAAAAASPAR AND JOEEEEEE. Cannot ah. But anyway i considered myself that im still in the fandom. But not those crazy type. Well you've love strangers for years. The one that save you from shits and your fandom is like your family. It's still so nice. (I promise this is the last but.) But this is the best memories that happen to me.
The last phase :
however,this is like the best thing that happen to me so far. it is so fun to have a fandom that is more like a family. i love you guys so much thank you. and Harry, Louis, Liam, Niall you deserve a break. directioners will always get through this. you’ve done more than enough for us. thank you for saving us. thank you for the best memories. don’t forget us. and we won’t forget you. thank you so much. i love you boys.xxx
