#renae

[northerngirldreams]

[kenopsia-ksp]

editing because i came up with names ❤️ renae dobson - ricky ray dobson - tyreese dobson in order

[sireniana]

They're buddies. :3

[monomorphilogical]

The death of a white horse

I am lead through the world by the hands of my own sickness

watching them choke on the spit of their forgiveness

but the scars will arise to their defense

there's no saving the skin tightening in repeated suspense

white-knuckle the wheel in thinking a machine could still betray me

and the engine drowns out through the nods of a baby

their empty hands have already reached into the pile-up backseat

fill the night with silence born from an mispronounced sigh of defeat

when the apple rotted through the core where it fell down

besides a river of blood where that line was meant to drown

they have never taken anything away from me

the ground was already barren between the roots of my family tree

only God knows why angels wait on the shoulder of a country byway

watching from the sidelines where I let my faith decay

and I never stopped it — call it sheer curiosity

ninety-five down the highway like there's something wrong with me

I'm winning in a losing game confession and it'll never be enough

'cause I can take a hit but I'm not that tough

tell me this life's all about knowing when it's time to sink or swim

I'll jump into the river just to illicit a response from him

and all of the angels will drown with me while I run softly out of air

heaven has forsaken the fate of a broken up radio station prayer

'cause I am strangled to death by love

forever listening to a white horse trample the ground above

I can only keep it steady on fractured concrete

the same way I continuously cut the knee on my hometown street

with dirt-covered fingers pressed against the flayed open nerve

— God never gives you more than you deserve

but it's not anyone's fault and I don't need nobody to pull me out

daddy told me that the white horse is something I should do without

so I watched it leave while I begged but it never came back

soaked through with tears until the world went black

woke up with my morality swinging forth from the ceiling beam

I used to be so good but they have made me mean

in between the jaw of a rabid dog 'cause its breath keeps out the cold

and the fear is there but it's getting fucking old

down on floorboards I've worn out by praying on my knees

I'd keep the wolf from the door if I wasn't weak from this disease

their teeth break my scar tissued skin so easy

and I'll lay there steadily bleeding out until they see me

'cause I am strangled to death by love

forever listening to that white horse trample the ground above

I am what they have made me — they will never save me

God will carve unto my body that he wishes he'd never forgave me

all of my bones will grind to dust beneath the weight

my edges sharpened to a knife until decay is all I'm able to create

hold me by the neck and lift my weary feet off the killing floor

I'll beg you to stop and you will bear down to give me more

'cause I've killed myself again

my skin gives so easy — but I didn't know it back then

all of my guts and glory spread throughout the power line valley

no different from a scared child running through the alley

after my daddy said white horses would never find me

I'll beg to the sleeper for a place to hide me

letting in a world of hurt with every straggler I drag home

but when they lay down next to me they'll never feel more alone

and they'll tell me quietly it feels like sleeping next to a dead body

they don't know my momma took me out back and shot me

I bit the bullet with lidded eyes and leaded limbs

corroded away until all my soft spots became cess pools for their sins

the body of a child molded into an afterthought for years to come

praying for a fist to the face to keep it from going numb

my hands are taught to throw a punch so I'll never hold it too tight

I'm winning the losing game by succumbing to every fight

no one will be there awaiting my survival to save me

and God will hate the way I have become what they made me

— 'cause I am strangled to death by love

forever listening to that white horse trample the ground above

[unofficial-sean]

Renae the Spotted Ratfish, looking gorgeous as ever!

[monomorphilogical]

The cut of angel teeth

you only come up to me this way in a dream

in the land where things are never as they seem

when I'm all over you until I can't breathe

asking you to give me all your love with teeth

where it only hurts when it can hurt you

and you can hate me for it but you know it's true

in that farmer's field where no one can see

how you're looking at me like the sky's gone empty

I know I'll die there — love is a nightmare

and you're always right there

between my thighs with all your man-made fracture

your pretty face haloed by the bleached pasture

eyes passed by the unshakable hold of my jaw

deaf to a sacrilegious prayer in every breath that I draw

underneath the whispered confession — only to you

and I try to keep all my stained-glass beneath your view

from a body crucified out of involuntary desire

only mended through endless fire

and here you are making your way up to me

with those steady hands through all my reverie

and I start to fall apart at the seams

remembering you only hold me like this in my dreams

you're sinking through me and I'm letting you

I don't want you and still I'm begging you

give me the kind of love I'll get to keep when you leave

give me something holy to believe —

I know all my endless consecration comes from within

visible through the burst blood vessels in my skin

but the way I need you to look at me goes to waste

you crash land up to me forever misplaced

I would've let you see right through

the way I'm red-faced and desperate — only for you

and you go on and bite your way up to me

under that lonely farmer's oak tree

and you give in — give me all of your love with teeth

secretly hungry for the blood that runs beneath

you're an angel falling over and over again in my dreams

so eager to take me down to all of your extremes

I can taste it — I can feel it

I'm kneeling over you with eyes closed and I believe it

you're the bruise that hides underneath the bone

the cut of your teeth tastes just like home

and you can't hear a fucking word I say

fever-hot in between my hands and I start to pray

— to a God you refuse call by name

you're still flesh and blood and to you it's all the same

telling me nobody should try and save you

and I said to you I don't think anyone could make you

but an angel will always be an angel at the end of the day

so say what you want to say —

you fell from heaven the second you chased me down

holding me through all your sins for me to drown

and I'm soaked — choked through

you don't know me as well as you think you do

in your hands I'm all eyes and I can't find the words

and I try to take you for better or for worse

but your teeth go for the soft parts of my body

you're all over me like you never knew how to hate me

I know I'll die here — the love's insincere

but you're still right here

and I kiss your pretty mouth until my lips turn blue

you're a real good fallen angel and I love you

and I hate you — your fingers stain upon my skin

you only wanted to know what I feel like from within

you're rough like concrete and easy like gasoline

and you run me over in a left-alone scene

still looking up at me with those doe eyes long vacated

I don't know how long I can keep you placated

all my dreams end in dismissed possibility

and the day will break the hold on my undemanding pliability

I'll wake up in tears until I'm all soaked through

I never wanted to do this with you

— but we were right there

all over me in a farmers field and we lied there

I only needed your love with the cut of your teeth

but you went for everything I try so hard to keep beneath

even in the morning's lowlight I continue to bleed

you say you're just like me and the flesh is all you need

but you're an angel with teeth and you're hungry

and you'll never outgrow the third degree

you'll burn right through me with that damned fire

there's nothing you can do that will take us higher

so say what you want you want to say

you're still a fallen angel at the end of the day

[pixystixxxdraws]

So back when the Spy x Family meme was popular, I actually did two edits!

"Those people called mages, with an apprentice or other people they are close to they feel like parents. Since they are something like their offspring, they often fight desperately to protect them as well."

This quote from KnK inspired me to do the meme with Waver and Gray, because I love their dynamic as teacher and student <3

The second one is just me self-indulging in my OC

[catwif3]

repostober day? 9?

it's time for! RENAE INTERLUDE

dated june & july 2019, renae was originally from the reverse fairytale licl au (i told you about the au's, bro), where lithi is a prince and forced to marry for the good of the kingdom even though he's in love with chlorine (a bridge troll) and so he has kids !

renae is the baby of the bunch and as such, vERY SPOILED, VERY OVERPROTECTED, kiiind of has something to prove, and also thinks she's totally invincible

incidentally, it was decided that in VAMPIRE au lithi also has kids, he just doesn't know about any of them (he's kind of a huge slut, guys).

AND THEN i brought renae back as a character for an urban fantasy rpg one of my friends was running, which lead to this (non-canon) comic where she has traced her ancestry back to this guy in the 1890's or whatever ONLY HE'S STILL ALIVE!!!!! (or undead, whatever). lithi doesn't like this. chlorine thinks it's the greatest thing that's ever happened to him.