When Carl’s depression finally took hold of him, it was hard
for anyone to deal with. Markus had already seen just how
horrible it could’ve been near the beginning of him taking care
of the old man. Over the last few years, it was rare for it to
take control like it used to. He’d been getting better, though
the mental strain from Leo’s situation always brought about
the possibility of it bringing it right back out of him.
Even after finding out that both of his boys were alive after
near-death experiences, it hadn’t pulled Carl out of his sense
of hopelessness. He was still just as emotionally exhausted
and done with the world as he had been when he thought
he was alone.
“I’m tired, Markus,” Carl breathed out softly. “I’m tired of
fighting with Leo, and trying so hard for that boy when he
refuses to help himself. I’m tired of sitting in this goddamn
bed-- I’m tired of sitting in that godforsaken chair.” His despair
was beginning to vaguely morph into anger.
“I’ve already lived far longer than I should’ve, Markus,” He
knew it must not’ve felt good, for the android to hear him
like this. Carl felt horrible for putting him through this, but--
what was he supposed to do?