Wow.... I've spent the last several hours reflecting on what this eye surgery means. The surgery itself doesn't scare me, she seems like she's competent, especially since she already lasered six spots on my right retina. But this piece of silicone (silicon?) Has been holding my retina together for over 20 years now. I've had to prove numerous times to MRI techs that it contains no metal. I've had to put up with annual eye exams, sometimes more often than annually. I've had to put up with the scar tissue. (Well, I'll have more of that) There's only a 6% chance that the eye won't hold it's shape when she removes the buckle and the retina detaches again. So she's going to laser the old detachment that necessitated the scleral buckle in the first place. When I was 19 I was told that I would be having major eye surgery within 2 days to save my sight. Now that buckle is full of infection, and needs to come out within a week, the week leading up to my 40th birthday. They won't let me keep the buckle, I had to sign consent that I understood I am not allowed to bring home medical waste, which is what it counts as. I am severely disappointed. Not because I think it's cool, but because it's been a part of me for so long. It's strange, I'm eerily calm, even though I'm at risk of losing the eye if it's not taken care of properly. It's infected and inflamed even after antibiotic drops, and steroid drops. It can't wait, so why freak out? Can you even tell there's anything wrong with my left eye from the picture? Didn't think so. #eyesurgery #scleralbuckle #retinadetachment https://www.instagram.com/p/B61-bDsHJdY/?igshid=1biwn98eqbsy8
