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My rewired brain

Although my brain compensated as I was a baby when I had my stroke, it doesn’t compensate far enough. I still struggle with significant neurological impairments, but with others assuming they know what I deal with, it makes what I deal with so much worse, not to mention stressful.

Sadly, I don’t feel in the same way as others do. The thought processes I have don’t connect to how I physically feel; in other words I can’t feel. Words are just words I don’t have any physical sensations to those words. I can tell myself I’m happy, but I don’t physically feel happy. I can tell myself I’m excited, but I don’t feel excited and so on.

As a consequence, navigating relationships isn’t easy because I have to interpret feelings instead. Through necessity, I have learned to compensate by reading people and situations, which always doesn’t go down well, because they think I’m a know it all, when in reality I’m just trying to work out what’s going on.

Without using my intuition and working from my gut, I would fail to have anywhere near a normal life. It is my intuition and gut that allows me to connect to people, to the outside world. My intuition helps me function, without which I’d be stuck in an isolated world.

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