#riddalin

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[It was like my brain was operating at such intensity. It was so real, like I was space-walking again, zero-g with no suit.] 

- The 100 4x11 ‘The Other Side’

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Road Less Traveled

It has recently occurred to me that if I were 6 years younger I would have potentially been diagnosed with ADHD. My inability to focus and tendency to go off on tangents would have been calmed and soothed by whatever pharmaceutical speed was in fashion at the time. Riddalin or Adderall.

Anybody still on Prozac?

I would have gotten better grades and attended a four year university instead of three semesters at city college. I would have had the ability to get good jobs and rise through the ranks of boring offices filled with attorneys or stockbrokers. I would wear beautiful high heels and show off my legs. Have drinks after work and mid-level fucks on a decent set of sheets. I would have gotten married and had a wedding that really only stressed me out. I wouldn’t have had any fun. I would have regretted tons of choices, and would have waited months before picking out the photographs. Maybe we would have two children. Maybe just two dogs.

I would have lived a completely different life.

[iamthemonster--x0-blog]

My firsts with the Monsters

Cigarettes: My older cousin who was 15 at the time gave me my first puff when i was 11. i didnt actually start until i was 14 with a couple of best friends. i smoke now, ive tried to quit, didnt work.

Booze: I was 14 i think. it was the beginning of summer and i was with a bestie at the time. Her uncle was babysitting us while her mom was out of town, he comes home with a bottle of captain morgan and orange juice. aha <333 I drink on occasion.

Weed: It was a couple weeks after i got drunk for the first time. The same bestie and her uncle brought me camping with them and a couple other close friends. it was a blast, everyone was shit faced for 48 hours. I remember being wasted and trying to take my first toke from a pipe, i dont remember anything after that. I get high every day, but im liking it less and less now that speed has entered my skull...

Riddalin/Conserta: I was with my bestfriend ever kessi, her mom, her boyfriend, his dad, and his friend in the middle of this summer. Her mom was resistant to give me any but she did anyways. it was the first time i railed anything and i didnt really like it. i got the drips, felt tired but couldnt sleep, no body buzz, constantly wanting more. I wont do it again, i dont like it.

Speed: this was quite recent, it was the end of this summer. I was with kessi, her boyfriend and a bunch of his friends, i recognized most of them from school. i only got a couple tiny lines but it was interesting, i liked it. I need to control this.