#dexedrine

[webgirl27]

Listen to breakcore. Scratch skin excessively. Drink Monster Energy. Force your mind to do what a human mind was never meant to do. Lock in. Ritalin-core.

[hbeepoetry]

[nemfrog]

Dexedrine. Psychiatric Bulletin, Volume 7, Number 4. 1957.

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[cosmic-whorror]

Ok so Dexedrine will only work if I make a literal list of tasks to complete for the day. I am less sweaty and also am not swimming through a piss river of thoughts?? I dreamed I told off some ancient aliens conspiracist by telling them that their disbelief that brown and black ppl in the distant past could build and invent shit was racist.

That is to say that I think it’s working pretty well?

[delicateboyz]

[johannas-motivational-insults]

Man I am grateful to be on ADHD meds now and having better energy and focus but it’s wild not being able to rely on my appetite to remind me to eat. I’m bad enough already at breaking away from whatever I’m doing when I’m hyperfocused even when I do get hungry. Now I don’t even realize I’m hungry until I’m too weak to think, and my metabolism has gone up too so it’s just a fucking shitshow. And I also can’t tell if I’ve eaten enough, or too much, so I’m having to pay more attention to my portions now instead of just eating until I’m not hungry.

Appetite suppression sounds nice, in theory. I’m glad it’s cured my binge eating and boredom eating problems but god, at what cost? I’m doing some research and coming up with strategies to manage, but man this is an adjustment. It’s nice not craving food when I’m not actually hungry but I wish I could still enjoy food? Now it seems I only enjoy it when I get super hungry, and I don’t want to deprive my body and make myself non-functional just to enjoy normal creature comforts yk?

Idk maybe this will wear off a little or I will get used to it, but right now I feel like complaining even if I really shouldn’t be complaining about getting on some potentially very helpful meds.

[purscription]

[It was like my brain was operating at such intensity. It was so real, like I was space-walking again, zero-g with no suit.] 

- The 100 4x11 ‘The Other Side’

[fairest]

That’s Me

She took down the bluish-gray tablets, relatively new on the market. They were made from a combination of dexedrine and amylobarbitone, and the directions on the label stated: “Indicated in states of mental and emotional distress.” The first time she read that statement she had told herself, “that’s me. That’s me all the time.” 

The pill worked rapidly on an empty stomach. The tremendous physical stimulation provided by the five milligrams of Dexedrine was leveled off at a peak efficiency by the counteropiate of thirty-two milligrams of amylobarbitone, holding the brain, which had been sharpened to almost supernatural brilliancy by the caffeine contained in the two cups of strong black coffee, to an almost unbearable lucidity, like Hemingway writing a novel.

--Chester Himes, from The End of a Primitive (1955)