I was going to send this in our family thread.
Neighbor guy is the doppelgänger of the car we lost in the crash. I didn’t because although he tries to pretend he doesn’t, STBX would catch feels. Although he hates me, I don’t want to inflict this kind of discomfort.
But & however, I had/have an opportunity to have this in the garage at least once. Wink wink. As I was discussing with a dear friend this morning during my commute, if I was a woman of loose morals, I’d make that happen at least once. But, I have morals so of course I won’t. I’ve also grown up and won’t let getting any type of revenge take up my time or energy.
STBX thinks that he is just a victim in the crash. I was in the front seat. It wasn’t his “fault”, but as a human being, a father, a husband, he should have felt some remorse. He should have apologized at least ONCE to us. The other guy was at fault. He should not have pulled out like that. BUT we were traveling much faster than we should have been. He didn’t have to show his ass and speed up to pass that car. He even said that he was glad they can’t tell how fast he was going. Maybe if he didn’t, it wouldn’t have happened. Maybe it would have been the car ahead of us. OR maybe it would have been far worse. So, I can’t think like that. I’m still suffering with the after effects. My neck, hip and spine will continue to be an issue. Although everyone: his mother, our CHILDREN for gods sake, our friends, my friends, his family, his extended family, “other mothers”, both primary care physician and counselor have asked if he hit his head during the crash. He said all that happened is that his glasses flew off. They ask that first followed by the chances of a growth or other brain issue. Anything to explain how my husband disappeared and this cowardly, self absorbed, nonsensical and mean spirited man took his place.
