Just landed back in LA.. eyes swollen shut and nose bright red from crying.. trying to find the strength to walk into my home filled with her presence.. she had a bed in every room.. toys all over the place and had just started shedding her winter coat.. I had always wanted to be a young mom and when that didn't happen I took all my desire to nurture and put it into my Bebe. I cooked her all organic breakfasts and dinner. She let me hold her like a baby even though I could tell she didn't prefer it.. when I felt like giving up or was freaking out she would calm me and bring me back to peace.. a part of me has died with her and it hurts to think about a life without her.. I would give anything for one more cuddle.. #ILoveYouBebe #EternalBebe #RIPBebe
