[about the song ‘Meatplow’] “The song had alread been recorded when Kurt shot himself at the start of April. But the song is exactly about what drove Kurt to suicide. Everyone dreams of being up on stage. It’s great to experience how 5,000 people are into your songs. But no one counts on the dark side of fame: when you play the same song 300 times in a row, it doesn’t do anything for you anymore and you come off as a fraud, who’s posing for people and himself. When you sign your 3,000th autograph, you don’t even remember who it actually is who’s signing. When, after 14 months of touring, you have to spent your Christmas holidays at home with your family, signing hundreds of posters and album covers for friends of your family’s neighbor’s friends, then you flip out. And then everybody says: he’s changed. He’s gone arrogant. Something like that can take its toll on you, mentally. Had I not broken off the ‘Core’-tour last year and found a therapist, then I would probably have given myself the bullet sooner than Kurt.“
Scott Weiland
