For anyone who's taking a gamble on a possible relationship:
You have to remember, you're getting yourself into this okay? You're the one going in for it even though you know that it could destroy you. You're taking this massive fucking chance that he's gonna go for you. And even then, it's him. He's not the most loyal person on earth and we both know that. But even still, you're going in for it. It's probably one of the dumbest things you've ever done but I believe you can do this. Just please remember to not let this get to you, if it doesn't work out, remember that it's not the be all end all. Let it go, move on. You can get through this and you can come out successful just keep hope in yourself, and don't let it get to you. You are worth so much more but you think this is the right decision so, go for it. Believe in yourself even when no one else will. And remember, you gave her the chance to tell you no, you gave her the chance to save your friendship but she turned away like she didn't care because the only person she wanted to please was herself. She was being selfish, because you would have given it up for her, but she never even thought about giving it up for you even although you deserve it so much more. But don't worry, someday when everyone is grown we'll all look back and see that in the end you were the better person even if they all loved her now. This is a big leap, but you can do this. And if you fall, then you can pick yourself back up and keep on moving like you always have. There's plenty of fish in the sea and don't get beaten up about one small salmon. Remember the person you were before and don't loose them on the ride. Cast your line in and hope for the best. You've got this.