#risu writes

[variksenvarjo]

it feels so strange when i go to the store, there's signs saying "these tangerines are in season right now!" but when i go back outside with those tiny pieces of sun, it's nearing 0°C and the sun has already set before i get home. somewhere out there far away, they're living a different life, they don't know the chill that settles in my bones each year

we're told to eat more tangerines in the winter, borrowing slices of sunlight from that far away place

[variksenvarjo]

one night crush

i watch you with stars in my eyes

and i swear, just for tonight,

i've never seen someone shine so bright

under the moodlights

intoxicated by the night time

never knew i'd like feeling like this

don't come and talk to me

or ruin the illusion, the story i've built

just stay close by, so tantalizing

when the sun rises, these feelings will wilt

[variksenvarjo]

such a familiar sight, the city outside your window

the six months have gone by so fast

and i remember each shade the sky has taken

sun setting, the warmth reflected on your face

golden reflections on the neighboring windows

slowly settling down to rest next to you

or the cloudy days, when we would just lay there,

pretending there was only nothingness outside

only the white skies or mist

and still i stare out through the window,

only six months more,

then we will be free

[variksenvarjo]

i used to search for a way out,

for anything resembling the illusion of today

but i've made my home in the mist,

familiar with the way it wanes

so the cloudy days, cloudy eyes,

continue on for another 9 years

trying to keep my hands warm so i can keep on surviving

so i can see another faded morning,

another stolen memory