(Written in specially for ‘Dark, Toxic, but Lovely’ Namjoon X Reader Moodboard created by me, @brownstudyk)
To some it seemed like he left every bit of good sense behind him in that room. But to him he was realizing he was wrong all along. It wasn't organization that kept him afloat, or work that he needed to occupy him, it wasn't free time that made him happy. He only wanted to become distant from the real world of work and stress that surrounded him, and become accustomed to your freedom and serenity that shone outward from your spirit. Even if it was only for this one night, he hoped to stay off the grid of those who needed him, and only to stay in sync with you. Only for tonight he'd have no fake smiles, no responsibilities, only a grip on your hand and a series of hush-hush rendezvous. Until tomorrow when he had to be back in his old self, facing reality, but knowing within that you and all of your addictive toxicity would be waiting outside your apartment building for him that same night, ready and willing to help Namjoon find a more realistic and happy version of himself.
Leading him through the dark night of your city, in which he was residing in until the end of the month, it finally sunk in that the relationship that had formed was, to say the least, a turning point in both of your lives. The two of you, though initially you clashed, made what seemed like an everlasting, vital duo. And neither of you completely understood where you would go from this, but the both of you knew, just as well as any witnesses could see, Y/n and Namjoon together were unyielding under all circumstances. With you Namjoon was able to feel free. Every step felt like he was opening a new door. Approaching a new opportunity. Every time he gripped you hand even just a little tighter, your breathing changed slightly. Every time his eyes disappeared behind his dimpled smile, you felt like you were dreaming. The balance between this pair was incredible. The unspoken feelings that both sides understood without the need to address anything, it was perfect. Fifteen days down, sixteen left. He lets your energy carry and guide him, so in the end, he hopes to find his way, either separated from you, or leaving his work and regular life behind in order to follow your ways of thriving youth, and glowing adventure.