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Salamat at Paalam

Kilala mo pa kayo ako? Matapos ang ilang araw Na walang pansinan Maalala mo pa ako O tuluyan mo ng makakalimutan Makakalimutan ang mga masasayang alaala Ang mga ala ala ng ating pagkakaibigan Kahit tila ako'y sadyang nahulog Sa patibong ng mukha ng pagibig Pilit kong pinigilan Pero ang pangalan mo ang tanging sigaw ng aking bibig Sa mga sandaling ika'y nasusulyapan Ang tanging naiisip Okay ba tayo? Okay ka lang ba? Kamusta ka kaya? Kilala mo pa ba ako? Teka wala nga palang tayo Hanggang dito lang ang lugar ko Isang araw mawawala din naman ang pagtibok Tatangayin kasama ng nga alikabok May mga oras na hindi maligaga Sa kakaisip kung Kumain ka na, Kakausapin mo pa ba ako Okay ka lang kaya Kamusta ang araw mo Kamusta pakiramdam mo Ingat ka Minsan gusto ng makipagusap Pero sa bawat katanungan ng minsan Ay wala akong naririnig na kasagutan Tila ba'y ako'y isang multo Na para bang walang nakikita Na para bang balewala lang Ganun naman ata eh Sanayan lang Nasanay na ako sa mga sakit at mga luha Nasanay na ako sa bawat iyakan Nasanay na ako na umasa Nasanay na ako na laging bigo Nasanay na akong maiwan Nasanay na ako na unti unti ka ng naglalaho Nasasaktan ako sa tuwing nakikita ka Na kahit kailanma'y di mo ko pinahalagahan Na kahit kailanma'y di mo man lang naramdaman Kung gaano ko ipinagsisigawan Ang pagmamahal na matagal ko ng ipinaglalaban Siguro nga'y ako'y isang hamak na kaibigan lamang Pero sana nakita mo rin ang halaga ng isang tulad ko sa buhay mo Hindi ko alam kung manhid ka bang talaga O sadyang nagbibingihan O nagbubulag bulagan O ang tanging paraan na lang ang iyong paglayo aking mahal Mahal maging masaya ka na Salamat at Paalam

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Ipaparamdam ko

Nakalimutan na ba natin ang salitang kamusta? Natutunan ko na maging manhid Dahil pakiramdam ko'y ika'y lumalayo Na kung dati'y sabay nakikinig sa mga kwento Ngayon tila'y pakiramdam ko'y madaming nagbago Kung lalayo ka man sanay sabihin mo Hindi yung nandito ako nagmumukhang gago Hindi yung nandito ako na umaasa na kausapin mo Baka sakaling sa paglayo mo Ay maayos pa ang sariling nasira mo Sa bawat yapak mo papalayo Ang tanging naririnig ko na lamang ay pagsuko Napapansin mo pa ba ang nararamdaman? Na labis akong nahihirapan Araw araw kitang nasisilayan Pero tila sa tuwing makikita kita ako'y nasasaktan Nararamdaman mo ba ang sakit na aking dinaranas Mag bubuwan na ng pag ibig pero tila pakiramdam ko'y undas Nakikita mo ba ang mga matang lumuluha Na ang tanging dahilan nito ay ikaw Ang ikaw na matagal ko ng minamahal Pero patuloy sa akin binubulong ng mundo... "Hanggang dito ka lang , ito ang lugar mo sa kanya" Bakit sa tuwing ako naman ang lalayo Tila ako'y laging hinahatak ng tadhana pabalik sayo Nahihirapan na ang puso Kahit gusto ng sumuko Ikaw at ikaw pa rin ang uuwian Dahil kailanma'y di kita magawang iwan Sinubukan ko tumakbo Sinubukan kong tumakas Pero ang mga bakas ng pag ibig ng kahapon Lagi akong dinadala sayo dahil kailanma'y alaalay di matatapon Dahil sayo'y nararamdaman pagibig na walang hanggan Sa tamang panahon Di ko mabatid kung ano ba ang takbo ng yong isip Kung mamahalin mo ba ang taong ito sa iyong harapan Na nagbibigay ng kasiyahan Kahit sa tuwing sandali ka niyang kasama Malaking bagay na iyon kahit pansamantala Ang pansamantala na laging hinihiling na hindi matapos Ang pansamantala na sanay maging totoo Ang pansamantala na kasiyahan Ang pansamantala na kaya kong ipaglaban Dahil lagi kang may puwang sa puso Kahit na sa dinami dami ng tao sa mundo Pag ibig ko sayo'y ilalaan Masayang man ang panahon Ang oras Ang taon Ang segundo Ang minuto Pero ngayon na lang ulit ako nakaramdam ng ganito Kahit pakiramdam ko'y ako'y pinagtatabuyan Kahit puro sakit ang nararamdaman Kahit balutin ng kalungkutan Maparamdam lang ang sakitang mahal kita Tila nawawala ang mga humapay na nararamdaman Dahil sa bawat pag bitaw ng salita Ang tanging nais na natatanaw ang puso mong sarado Na tila sobrang nakakandado Kung iyong napapansin ang aking pagsulyap Ang aking pagtitig Ang aking pag papansin Ang nais ko lang naman sabihin Maganda ka sa aking paningin Mahal kita kahit nakalimutan mo na ang salitang ito Kahit na ilang beses ka na nalito Kahit na nakaranas ka na ng pagkabigo Susubukan ko baka sakaling ako ang maging sagot Susubukan ko baka sakaling pwede ko maging susi Dahil sa paglipas ng panahon pagtatamabalin ko ang mga salitang Mahal kita at Ipaparamdam ko Mahal kita at Ipaparamdam ko na kahit sa maikling panahon na pagsasama masilayan mo ang pag ibig na baka matagal mo ng hinahanap. Baka ito pala ang gusto mo sa hinaharap. Mahal kita at Ipaparamdam ko

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Kahit Sabog ka

Sa sansinukob na ating ginagalawan, nauuna palagi ang sanhi bago ang bunga. Bakit? Ewan ko rin. May nakita ka na bang tumawa muna bago sumaya?

Cause before effect.

Isa pa pinakamahirap sagutin na tanong ay yung, bakit may mga taong hindi umiinom. Dahil ba pinagbawalan, o dahil di nila trip lasa ng alak? Ewan ko ulit. Ang alam ko lang ay maraming bagay sa buhay na pwedeng pagpilian, kung ang napili mo ay dun ka lang sa sulok, walang basagan ng trip.

Para sakin marami silang namimiss kung di nila susubukang lumabas sa kahon nila. Paano malalaman ng crush mo na crush mo sya kung di ka magtetext ng madaling araw kasi di ka naka inom?
Hindi naman araw-araw meron kang lakas ng loob. Hindi naman din araw-araw mo kailangan non.

Balance.

Kung tingin mo sa pag-inom ay yung mararamdaman mo kinabukasan, hindi para sayo ang kasiyahan. Minsan masarap makawala sa hiya na yumakap sayo para wala kang magawa, para dun ka lang sa gilid ulit. Minsan mas masaya ikanta yung bulong na di mo masabi.

Minsan may mga tao na kakakilala mo pa lang, alam mong pareho ang liko ng bituka nyo pareho. Minsan kung sino pa yung mas matagal mong nakasama, yun pa ang hindi ka kayang saluhin. Kaya kung ako sayo, sasamahan mo ako rito. Magdala ka ng gitara, kahit magkano patak mo, walang kaso. Wag ka lang maarte kung ang pulutan ay chichirya. Tanggalin mo yung hiya kasi ang pinakamahalaga, yung kwento mo.

Kasi ang buhay, di pahabaan…
 Ang buhay, pasarapan, pasayahan.

Wag ka mag-alala sa mangyayari kinabukasan. Malamang sa hindi wala na rin kayong lahat matatandaan, Ayos lang sumuka, wag lang sumuko.

Bandang huli magsisi ka man, ang mahalaga naging masaya ka… Kahit sabog ka

-Syot

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Someone

Wishing from the stars beyond a rainy day that someone will enter my life and hug me from behind. Wishing all my longings in love be fullfilled by someone i'm dreaming my whole life through. Life maybe rude at some other times . Life maybe unfair most of the times. But be thankful we're living in the world where we can find love and feeling different dramatic emotions. I always say this world is a big stage, a big platform where we act, different characters, different stories, different lines in life but then as a person there will be this someone what we call a partner. Beyond the pain we have deal with in the past. We have to learn and grow coz every person that comes to our lives leave an impact and memories that we can learn from. Maybe some were meant to be in the first place or some are being dramatically hopeless when it comes to the world of war which is love. Finding someone is really hard. It's like putting your heart at risk. But that's a fact we have to put everything at risk when we love. Coz relationships depends on how we handle or how end up to its just a happy memory that will come or that will leave coz we have our own options to pursue everything or to give up on what we hold on to. Find someone who can be your first and last. It can be your ideal man or ideal girl. We have our own ideal person. If we can't find this one just wait for the perfect timing coz everything will fall in its place when that time comes. Someone that will love you right. Someone that will give you his/her world. Someone that can hug you in the middle of the night give you kisses and some simple sweet messages that will make you smile without a reason. Someone that will walkthrough to you in times of hard trials through thick and thin. Someone that will love you unconditionally even at his/her last breathe the only word he/she will left is I love you Someone that will miss you everyminute when you are away. Someone that will cook for you and give you a meal like the love that fullfills you Someone that will complete you and fix the broken pieces of past experiences Someone that will travel with you and get lost in the middle of the road Someone that will shout name and tell how much you mean Someone that will value your personality for what you are or who you are not basing on the looks but accepting you because of what you have inside Someone that will make you believe that fantasies and fairytales exists Someone that will make an A effort for you even simple things can make you smile Someone that will keep you up and never letting you down Someone that will make you believe eternal love exist

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Thoughts

I’m in the middle of 12 in the morning, wondering of what or how my life will go through, for the next few days, years to come. It can be different or rather saying it can be , it will be different. I’ve been spending my life in this world for several years looking for answers. There are many thoughts running on my mind, full of questions and i’m trying to look for treasure boxes where i can find answers. Life is playful from different experiences you either win or you either lose but in the end from those experiences we have many reasons to be thankful for, for a reason that it is one of the valuable moments, or one factor that we can learn from to. From the path we are choosing we met different people, find friends collaborate with them, thank them and love them. From the love we get from somebody we become opulent. Not everybody is being loved certainly but rather some are just treated to be love because they need them or rather they are just loved for the mean time but will be left behind or they are just loved because some just wanna play around.

We can be ourselves with someone who will accompany you from all the things you’ll face in this world. But to find that someone you need to wait for that time coz i believe that everybody in this world has this one person that is destined for him/her or what we call the perfect timing. We may love someone but we never know if that someone can be your destiny thing or just a person will walk through to your life and teach you lessons so in time you’ll learn to mature when the right one comes. You’ll fall in love for so many times and feel the drama beyond this fight, from this certain drama or chapter in your life different emotions will be felt coz when we love we get rid of things, we forget ourselves. We tend to revolve to the world you love and give everything you have. That’s life giving love to somebody is a meaningful act to someone. But in the end the tendency is you’ll get hurt because nothing is permanent in this world, all people die we are not immortals. Let’s just be strong to face the reality. Pain will always be there but i assure you what important in this world when we love is the memories we shared for that someone. 

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Ako

Kamusta ka? Okay ka na ba? Okay ka na ba sa mga sakit ng nakaraan? Nakabangon ka na ba? Naghilom na ba ang mga sugat na dulot ng kahapon? Matapos ang iba't ibang nararamdaman Matapos makabangon sa sakit ng nakaraan Kailan mo kaya ulit mararamdaman? Kailan kaya muli magbubukas ang pusong matagal ng sarado? Mapapansin mo pa kaya? Mapapansin na may isang tao pa din dito Nagmamahal sayo ng totoo Hinihiling na lamang na isang araw ay biglan ni tadhana Ang pusong na nabiyak at nakulong sa kadiliman Baka sakaling ako ang magsilbing liwanag Wag mo sana sabihin na wala kang mararamdaman Dahil di natin kaya diktahan ang hinaharap Dahil di natin kaya labanan ang panahon Dahil di naman natin alam kung san nga ba ang kahahantungan Aliwin na lang ang sarili sa kasiyahan Ang kasiyahan na dinudulot ng ating pagkakaibigan Makinig sa bawat kwento ng bawat isa Damhin mo ang pagmamahal ko na higit pa sa iba Kaibigan lang ako pero minamahal kita Minsan nasasaktan pero kinakaya Dahil umaasa na balang araw baka magtagumpay Magtagumpay sa mga agam agam na mahagkan ang iyong mga kamay Sana dumating ang araw mamulat ka Mamulat na ika'y isang sanhi ng aking ligaya Ligaya na sa piling mo nadarama Nadarama na ikaw na ang matagal ng hinahanap Sana hindi ako nagkakamali Handa ako maghintay Ano man ang maging kapalit Masaktan man sa dulo o Magtagumpay man sa huli Salamat at dahil aking sinubukan At hindi kita sinukuan Binalak na ang pagsuko nung dati Pero pilit ako hinahatak ni tadhana pabalik sayo At tanging sinisigaw ng puso ko pangalan mo at ang sakitang...... Mahal Kita Mahal kita at sana pakinggan mo Galing to sa loob ko Walang halong pagbibiro Mahal kita dahil ikaw na siguro Ikaw na siguro ang matagal ng nawawala na kukumpleto sa parte ng puso kong matagal ng nasira Mahal kita dahil sayo ko nakikita ang kasiyahan na may ikaw at ako sa dulo ng walang hanggan Mahal kita dahil hindi dahil sa mga asaran kung hindi dahil ito ang bigay ni bathala ikaw ang nakalathala sa storya ng aking pag ibig Sana pagdating ng araw ako'y mahalin mo Wag mag alangan Dahil mga bibitawang salita'y panghahawakan Di naman ako ng tulad ng iba Na laging nauuwi sa iwanan at luhaan Sana'y subukan mo... Subukan mo na baka sakali sa piling ko pala Iyong madama ang tunay na kahulugan Na sinira lamang ng isang karakter sa iyong nakaraan Pakiramdamam mo sana baka sakaling puso'y tumibok Baka sakaling may puwang pa diyan na kayang mailagay ang pangalan ko Baka sakaling ang mundo nati'y magtapo Na matagal ng naliligaw Pakiramdaman mo... Maghihintay akoo... Mahalin mo man ako o di kaya'y ipagtabuyan Hanggat kaya ko di kita susukuan. Balang araw kung ako'y di man mapili o walang pagtibok na maganap para sa akin. Sana ang makita mo'y taong hindi ka sasaktan at paluluhain. Sa pagbubukas mo ng pintuan... Pagdating ng panahon... Sana'y makita mo at mapansin mo AKO.

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Change

Let’s talk about change-change, in the most straightforward manner of the word which is kind of what the attack and intention of the post is. Let me get it straight. Though it’s almost (not almost but it really is) a cliche that the only permanent thing next to the permanent marker (which isn’t permanent at all) is undeniably change. Inevitably, things do, people do, places do undergo change. And to supply you with another cliche slash mantra, another thing that doesn’t change (as they say) is memories.
But what if that memory spoils and rots and die a natural death? Doesn’t it change? Though you could always revive that peice of information your mind chose to let go like water on your palm, doesn’t the memory change? Why do we change?
It’s adaptation. 
A boxer eats a left hook, next time around he’d most probably change stance to avoid getting caught - an accurate metaphor to the change brought about by physical pain to people. However, that would be pain in the most innocent sense of it. If someone does you wrong, emotionally this time, kept you waiting, hanging on, fooled, extorted, extracted, milked, lied to, name it. What’s your sufferance? Change. Because basically, you never want to let those happen again, for the second time around. 
You put your guards up - which in itself, is change. This is nonesense

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Love Plays

The first time I saw you I’ve been paralyzed, my mouth can’t speak, words aren’t coming out, but just in a moment, a glimpse of those look in your beautiful face with those glittering eyes, a spark of lightning just hit my heart that was asleep for a year and i don’t know why. Maybe a cupid that was just playing around hit me with the arrow right through the very inner part of it. A glass that was broke into pieces more than a year ago, was replaced again with a better one. The broken pieces was wiped away tears fell down but now a new beginning has started, a life full of chapter and in every chapter different endings. Happiness is a choice so i chose you to be a part of it. Your broken heart will mend someday here I come trying to fix it like a hero that will save you from your darken days, reminiscing those memories will just play on you and put you down but every downfall i’ll be here to lift you up to cheer you up, trying to lit up the fire that was blown away by your stormy days, your mind maybe muddled because of the pictures of the lost one that was passing like a car that produces different beeps that disturbs the tranquility of your mind, those darken days that made you cry and feel that a lethal weapon had hit you in your puzzling mind with those shattered dreams that smashed your heart into bits but i promise you when the clock alarmed me for the right time it will be replace of memories that you will cherish for a lifetime let’s just wait for the sun to set and let your darken days of unkept promises that wasn’t fulfilled be enlighten with happy thoughts of the brighter side for a brighter future. Seasons, weather, days can’t tell when will you hear again the sweet melody of music that make your heart open the door to fall in love again. A single snap of your photo with those mesmerizing smile, the cuteness of your face, a good personality in a person with a big heart, makes me feel inspired, three words maybe suitable for you but i can’t say it personally because i don’t have the guts, i maybe shy but i want to tell you i really like you. Maybe i don’t have the face of being of handsome, a body that make girls feel so alive because of too much hotness but i have only 1 shot for a gun that has 1bullet and that’s my big heart for a person the countless efforts that i can give. A true love that can explain that their are still this people who can be worth to be with.