girl finally at the end of semester get to talk with her crush literally a conversation longer than a minute after crushing over him for the whole semester...talked to him twice (one time i initiated in sake of thanking him for helping me in university practical)..for the whole day the conversation is playing on loop in my mind...each and every word i spoke with him is haunting me and not letting me have a peaceful minute...i wasn't nervous while talking with him & i didn't feel any butterflies (the feel everyone gets)..i just poured every word came into mind without thinking...he smiled while talking to me (maybe it's his way of talking idk)...I'm controlling my overthinking mind to not emphasize this & gaslighting myself to think he is in love with me...the paranoid me is thinking he might hate or annoyed by the way I spoke...we both literally sat near not even a feet apart...idk whether he intentionally or unintentionally came and sat near me...ugh my mind is restless now....lately i have been trying to get over him and i was near to succeed it suddenly he came and talked to me by helping me in university practical (it was just a small help but im grateful like he saved my life)...the conversation was like a stone thrown at my clear state stagnant water of mind; now im incoherent...but i never imagined this not even in my dreams..for the whole semester i hoped & prayed to god to have a conversation with him but i didn't expected it to be happen in this way.
