Running Through the Suckage
There comes a point in just about every run I do where a little voice pipes up and says, "For the love of God, STOP. Please, just stop. Now."
I can tell it's a good day - nay, a day as magical as unicorns - if this voice never comes. I've only had a few runs like that, and certainly none recently.
I can tell it's a bad day if I'm only one or two kilometers in, and already this voice has piped up.
And, on a perfectly average day, this voice pipes up without fail 3/4 of the way into my run. I have no idea exactly how this happens, but it is alarmingly regular. I think my mental odometer is much more accurate than my little gadget.
I had a good realization yesterday during my long run. I'm up to running 8k, which is getting close to the maximum distance I've ever run (9k), so I'm getting to a point where I'm starting to test my limits once again. Usually I can comfortably say to myself that I've done this distance before, this is nothing new and I know I can do it. Moving into new territory, I have to find new mental ways to motivate myself.
This particularly whiny voice hit me around 6.5km yesterday, and I found myself struggling. I started to lose my focus, and lose my pacing. Then, I stopped and asked myself why exactly I felt that I needed to stop. Were my legs hurting? Too tired to go on? Was my chest hurting? Heartbeat racing, uncomfortably high? Headache, dehydration?
The answer to all of these was no. I was doing well, in good shape, doing fine. My heart rate was decent, my breathing comfortable and regular, and though my legs were getting tired, I wasn't hurting.
So, I kept going. And I made it. My time wasn't anything spectacular (57 minutes, blech), but my pace was rock steady for practically the whole run.
I think most of my challenges in the weeks to come are going to be mental ones. If I can overcome the little voice, or at least push it back, I'll have fought and won a major battle. And if I can't, then at least learning how to ignore it or refute it will be a good skill in and of itself.