#rocktalk

[rocko-newjeans]

I feel very lucky that people like my OCs but it also feels straight up tragic that I cant give them all an equal amount of care and attention cus my brain a lil dumb 😔

[extra-pepper0ni]

Okay talking about my headcanon that skwisgaar has ocd:

Gonna talk about his intrusive thoughts (warning for violence & sexual shit), fear of contamination and perfectionism.

First of all, for anyone who doesn't know, intrusive thoughts are a big OCD thing, these are disturbing or disgusting etc. thoughts that are obviously unwanted and distressing and frequently focus on certain themes.

Skwisgaar struggles a lot with really horrible sexual intrusive thoughts about his mother, one of the most common ones that keeps popping up in his head is the flashback of his mother when he was trauamtized by her as a kid. Its like reliving it all over again and it leaves him feeling sick and disgusted everytime.

Seeing his mother triggers it the most of course, and whenever she visits mordhaus, he obviously hates being near her for a multitude of reasons, one of biggest ones being how sexually explicit she is with no concern for boundaries or other's peoples comfort, and he'll vent to the other guys about it, but only to a very small extent, comments that we see talking about 'why ams she wearins that fuckins dress, ams she a strippers' etc.

Skwisgaar keeps it all to himself, disgusted by the thoughts and obviously never wanting to share them or talk about them. Maybe after so many years of knowing and living with each other, the more perceptive members start to get an inkling of what he's dealing with (if you wanna go the charles has ocd too route, maybe charles senses he's suffering with it too and tries to offer a bit of comfort without addressing the ocd itself but we know Charles isn't the best at comforting and skwisgaar isnt the best at allowing himself to be vulnerable around people)

Anyways, so you can imagine just how extra horrible all those serveta scenes are for skwisgaar, like the end of the cursed christmas special, and of course, when he moves back to sweden only to be retraumatized all over again. He keeps these thoughts secret for years and never intends on sharing them with anyone.

After Toki gets kidnapped by Magnus, he starts getting a lot of intrusive thoughts about Toki getting tortured etc, and the image of Toki hanging upside down, all bloody and beat and starved is burned into his mind forever. For a while after doomstar, maybe skwisgaar even avoids toki because seeing him triggers these thoughts even worse, and it builds up until Toki finally confronts him.

Now as you know I love skwistok lol and I think if they were at a point in their relationship where Skwisgaar chooses to trust Toki with Knowing him and all his vulnerabilities and struggles etc he would open up about it, sobbing and not being able to bear looking at toki but needing to explain what horrible shit is happening in his head and why it makes it so difficult. "It ams likes, my worst nightmares, yous just, gettins stabbs overs and overs, and Magnus ams deres and he ams doings... De worst tings to you... Sometimes it amnsts even hims, sometimes it ams mes .." you get it some real big angst hurt and comfort stuff. Toki understands, sees his distress and tries his best to reassure him that he knows him and knows skwisgaar would never want to hurt him and never want to see him hurt.

Okay, now for the contamination OCD side of things.

Skwisgaar takes really long elaborate showers, has a whole routine and process to decontaminate that he has to repeat over and over until it just Feels Right, and if he wasn't a god with life & healing powers (and a bunch of expensive creams and products) his skin would probably be scrubbed dry. The sheer grossness of dethklok and their party till you vomit lifestlye though acts as really good exposure therapy lol and over time he gets better and better with all his contamination ocd related compulsions like showers handwashing, and just generally feels less repulsed and anxious going about life than he used to. He's never felt so liberated getting nasty with dethklok lol

Alright, a big ocd thing too is this whole 'just right' thing, where you have to keep repeating something over and over until it feels right. It makes recording sessions even harder when he has to keep playing the same lick over and over until it feels right, even tho the guys swear the last one was fine.

He also has the whole perfectionist thinking (another big ocd thing) too, when it comes to recording sessions and obviously, releasing albums. He and Nathan kind of share this, and will keep rerecording, redoing, and rewriting trying to get things perfect until they get exhausted, and become too overwhelmed to finish. This is pretty much canon, we see this esp in Nathan deleting albums over and over and being concerned about it not being perfectly brutal enough. It seems like they're either working on the album really intensively trying to get it perfect, or not working on it at all and avoiding deadlines.

Im getting a headache staring at my screen typing this so gonna wrap it up there, hope you enjoyed!

[alsosprachvelociraptor]

Antarcticite is NOT ice

i see A LOT of confusion in the HNK fandom, mostly because of the last chapter. Aechmea is speaking of “ice” and everyone thought that ice=Antarc.

but it’s incredibly WRONG.

Antarcticite is a halide mineral, a salt. Its a calcium chloride, meaning its chemical composition is CaCl2 * 6H2O (Calcium, Chlorine plus six "parts” of Water)

Ice is a oxide mineral (yes! Ice is a mineral!). It’s a dihydrogen monoxide, meaning... water. it’s a fancy name for “water”. H2O (Hydrogen and Oxygen)

Antarcticite and Ice are TWO COMPLETELY DIFFERENT MINERALS. They don’t even form in the same ways!

Ice crystallizes when the temperature falls under 0°C, while Antarcticite crystallizes in brine (water containing very high proportions of salt (sodium+chlorine). EDIT: i said a stupid thing. Antarcticite’s melting point is at 29°C.

So, in conclusion, no. Antarcticite is NOT ice. Thanks for the patience to read all of this

[brookstones]

cole: maybe we should like....actually plan out what we’re doing and not rush in head-first jay:

[calliopeisamused]

I finally organized my collection but there's still so many that I couldn't fit on the shelf help,,,,

[rocko-newjeans]

Hey rocko! Have you been playing Deltarune? 👀

Just wanting to know your thoughts ;3

Yes! I actually played it a few weeks ago and it was sooo good. I can't wait for the rest of the chapters to come out I really want to know how the rest of it plays out.

ₐₗₛₒ ᵢ ₗₒᵥₑ ₜᵥ...

[rocko-newjeans]

oh, gosh I thought u deactivated YEARS ago?! (dunno why I thought that, sorry!)

SO glad ur still active!!

I did have a few years where I stopped posting and then some unintentionally long breaks in between so I don't blame you for thinking that LOL

[rocko-newjeans]

Hiya I'm Rocko! I used to be part of the g/t community here, took a break, joined twitter, took some more breaks here and there, and now I'm back here again with a fresh new blog lol. I gotta get settled back in but I'mma try to post some oldish art here soon to get started! I mostly draw self insert, giant dudes, and sometimes furries so if you're interested in any of that feel free to stick around!