realised i forgot to post this here last night #oops
this is an au of the movie Eternity, which i have not watched but seems like the most gorgeous and heartbreaking premise ever, so i've stolen all of the plot i could gather from the trailer and made it into romoceit
also, ellipsus kindly informed my that this is my 200th document. which means i have 200 fanfiction wips and i've only ever posted like 35. i should get on that. this is also my 30th posted fanfic in the sanders sides fandom. 2025 has been a good year for me writing-wise
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Summary: Roman had been his first love, his first kiss, his first dance, his first everything.
And Janus gave him everything he’d ever known — his home, his children, his grandchildren. Janus understood him in a way nobody else ever could.
OR: after patton died, he didn't have just one husband waiting for him. he had two, and the most impossible decision he'd ever been asked to make
Warnings: grief/mourning, mentions of dying at war, mentions/discussions of suicide (none of the main 3 committed), really REALLY hard decisions to make
Words: 3060
Chapters: 1 2 3 4
The day Patton died was sunny and bright. It wasn’t a sad day. He’d lived a long and happy life, filled to the brim with love and experience and culture. His husband had died the year before, and he’d really only wanted to be with him again. The funeral was packed with all the people he’d loved — his children and grandchildren, his neighbours, his old friends and colleagues. While death is always an intrinsically sad affair, Patton had the one most can only dream of and pray for.
He had simply gone to sleep one night, warm in his bed after a day spent with his family, and didn’t wake up. His next door neighbour had called a well-being check for him when he didn't open his blinds the next morning. He’d only been dead a few hours, the doctors said. It was a good death. Peaceful, painless, quick.
When Patton died, he woke up in a bedroom he didn’t recognise. None of the weight was attached to his limbs, none of the stiffness creaking in his joints, none of the dryness in his eyes. He sat up easily, quickly, and he didn’t find himself dizzy.
“Patton?” a voice asked, soft and slow. He turned to the side and found a lady with warm eyes and a welcoming smile and he returned it on instinct.
She was dressed professionally — a neat, knee-length pencil skirt and a blazer. She was holding a clipboard, hands holding it lightly.
“Hello,” he said politely.
“Hi! My name’s Missy.”
“Well, it’s lovely to meet you. I’m Patton, but you seem to know that already.”
She inclined her head. “I do. Do you understand what’s going on, Patton?”
“Um… Well, no, not really,” he said, smiling politely, if puzzled. “I feel— Well, I feel good! Really good. Like I’m twenty again!”
“Patton. I’m afraid to say you died last night.”
The smile fell from his lips. He stared at her for a moment, and blinked. “I— I did?”
“You did.”
Slowly, Patton began to shake his head. “But I— My kids, my—”
Missy looked down at her clipboard, lifting a page to peek underneath. “Ah, yes. That’s… two sons, yes? Virgil and Thomas.”
“They still need me.”
“Do they?” Missy asked, head tilting. “I think you raised them perfectly, if I do say so myself. Perfectly enough, and for long enough, that I think they’re going to be just fine without you.”
Patton blinked at her. He laughed, slightly dizzy, pressing a hand to his chest and trying not to start blubbing. “Well, I… I suppose it was a long old life, wasn’t it?”
“It was.”
“And they— they’re good boys. Good brothers. They love each other, they’ll look after each other. I know they will. And they’ve got Logan, and Nico, and the boys… they’ll be okay. They’ll be okay.”
“I’m sure they will.”
Patton sniffled, and then gasped. “Oh— Oh, is he here? Is my Janus here?”
“He is. He’s been waiting for you. Would you like to see him?”
“Can I? Can I really? You promise he’s here, you’re not messing with me?”
Missy smiled brightly. “Of course! Come with me, I’ll take you to him.”
Immediately, his heart pounding — was that right? Surely his heart wasn’t pounding if he was dead, but it sure felt like it was doing some kind of nervous little dance deep in his chest — Patton shot to his feet and rushed after Missy. She led him out of the room, into a large corridor. It looked like a hotel, really, he thought, with rows of doors closed tight on either side. The carpet was plush and dark — an intricate, weaving pattern that sort of reminded him of the rug he and Janus had lugged through their first three houses, before it had been set on fire on Thomas’s fourth birthday, when Patton had tripped up whilst carrying the cake in.
He tried to take deep breaths as they walked. They turned a corner, and then there was a wide, grand set of stairs. It was sort of like the stairs you’d see in a rich wedding, or maybe a period piece with a ball, where the princess descends in her gorgeous dress and meets the eyes of her masked suitor.
Missy stopped at the top, and gestured for Patton to go ahead. He froze, staring at her, and his breath hitched. “You promise?”
“I promise.”
Patton’s hands shook, and he gripped the bannister tightly. Walking down stairs hadn’t been this easy since before his first grandkids were born, and yet his legs shook violently as he went. What if he wasn’t there? What if this was some sort of deeply elaborate and deeply cruel prank?
He walked slowly, following the curve of the stairs, eyes catching on the glistening chandelier, and then he raked them down, and froze.
The man had his back to Patton. He was wearing a black suit, but the bowler hat was one he’d had the whole time Patton knew him, one Patton had given to Virgil when he died. He turned, and it happened like it was slow motion, first his body, then his head, and then—
His eyes met Patton’s, and he was so young again, almost as young as when they’d first met. His face split into a bright grin, stretching the scars that lay across the left side of his face.
Patton felt like he was flying. The rest of the steps seemed to disappear from beneath him, and he soared through the air, light as a feather and vision blurred with tears. He collided with Janus, who caught him with arms around his neck, and Patton span him around, laughing and crying all at once and he felt like the day they’d gotten married. He pressed a kiss to Janus’ mouth, squeezing him around the waist, and Janus laughed against him.
“You weren’t meant to be here so early,” Janus said, and Patton set him down.
“Early? I waited a whole year! Oh, Janny, look at you. You’re gorgeous.”
Janus scoffed, rolling his eyes. “Please, I look—”
“Well, start believing it. Because you’ve got the rest of eternity to—”
A voice interrupted him, curt and professional, and Patton remembered they technically had an audience. “Actually,” Missy said. “There may be a… slight bump in your road to shared eternal happiness.”
Patton frowned, and Janus scoffed, and he was glaring at her so viciously that it actually startled Patton, too, and he squeezed his shoulders comfortingly. “Excuse me?” Janus spat, like he didn’t even feel Patton’s hands. “What the hell is that supposed to mean? Are you saying we aren’t good enough for heaven? I waited here for—”
“Hello, my dear, sweet prince.”
Another voice had interrupted Janus. Low and smooth and rich, and so violently, achingly familiar that Patton felt it like a tug deep inside him. The air caught in his chest, and he turned in the other direction, where a man stood, his eyes locked onto Patton.
“Uh… who’s this?” Janus asked, as Patton’s hands fell off his shoulders. He couldn’t bring himself to speak. He wasn’t sure he knew how, his tongue heavy in his mouth as he shuffled closer to the man.
He was taller than Patton — and he’d forgotten that, actually, the fact that he’d once been shorter — with broad shoulders and a square jaw. His hair was perfectly swooping, auburn locks glinting in the light. His teeth were bright and white, his full lips curving around them.
And his eyes. Oh, his eyes. The day coloured photos became commonplace, Patton had sobbed like a baby, because he’d have given anything to be able to show people how violently green his eyes had been. Patton moved closer to him like he was in a trance, and he heard Missy say something to Janus, but he couldn’t really hear over the roaring in his ears as he stood before him. His fingers trembled as he lifted them to gently poke at the man’s cheek.
“Oh, my goodness,” he whispered, voice shaking. “Oh, it’s— It’s you.”
“Ah!” Janus cried with false cheer. “Of course, it’s— It’s our bartender! Jack! Jack, old pal, how’ve you—”
Patton didn’t mean to interrupt him. But he just couldn’t keep it in. “I never even dreamed you this clearly,” he choked.
“You are exactly as I remember,” Roman said, his hands holding Patton’s face between them, and he was so warm, so real, right there in front of him.
Behind him, Patton heard Janus choke on a scoff. “No. Now, hold on,” he said. “Roman had a moustache.”
“Patty always hated it,” Roman said, not looking away from him even as he addressed Janus. “So I shave it off every morning in the hopes that that will be the day he arrives.”
Behind him, Missy said, “And today is,” her voice thick, but Patton didn’t even really hear her.
“Remus grew one after,” he said.
Roman let out a hearty laugh. “I know he did. I saw him, when he came through. I must admit, he wears it far better than I did., although you can never tell him I said so.”
Patton choked back a sob, biting down on his bottom lip. “I tried to help him. Roman, sweetheart, I tried so hard.”
“Oh, I know. I know, my dear. It wasn’t your fault. I never blamed you. And neither did he. Not for a second.”
“I am. And so are you. Together once more, my sweet.”
“Hey, hello. Also here,” Janus snapped behind them, and Patton gasped, turning to look at him with wide eyes.
“Ah, yes,” Roman drawled. “Who, exactly, are you?”
“This is the second husband,” Missy answered, and Janus turned to glare at her.
“Current husband,” he snarled, and Patton reached out to lay a hand on his arm. When had he gotten so close?
Missy smiled that polite, customer-service smile that Thomas used to give the neighbours when they were being too rude to Virgil. “Of course. But, technically, death did you all part. None of you are current husbands.”
Roman scoffed. He wrapped his arms around Patton’s waist and swayed him back and forth, and when Patton squirmed, embarrassed, his hold tightened. “A lifelong love is not to be paused by the mere ending of one’s life!” he cried. Janus was glaring daggers at him, and Patton swallowed. He squirmed again, and Roman’s arms fell away.
Patton had loved being held like that. It made him feel safe, and warm. He used to laugh so hard his eyes would prick with tears as Roman squeezed and squeezed. He closed his eyes tightly and stepped away from both Janus and Roman, towards Missy, his breathing quick and shallow.
“Just— Hold on, okay?” he said tightly. “What— Missy, dear, could you explain what… well, what’s going on here?”
“Well, now you get to pick!” she said brightly.
Everything seemed to freeze. Patton stared at her, a touch lightheaded, and he tilted his head in confusion. “Sorry, pick?” he asked. “What— What does that mean, exactly?”
A hand brushed against his, and he flinched, clutching it to his chest and glancing at Janus. Janus raised an eyebrow, studying Patton carefully, and Patton smiled weakly and nodded, even though his hands were shaking where he had them clasped at his chest and he felt oddly like his knees were going to buckle.
“You see,” Missy explained, her voice still bright, “you get to choose who you’ll spend your eternity with. Roman, or Janus!”
Patton felt like his heart had stopped all over again. Choose? How on Earth was anyone supposed to—
What a ridiculous idea. What a cruel idea. Surely, he wasn’t the first person to be in his position. Surely, the others had refused. Anyone would refuse! How could anyone just pick?
He shook his head. “I can’t do that.”
“Well… I’m afraid you have to. Roman had the option to move on, you see, but he chose to wait here for you. Same for Janus. That means you get to pick!”
This wasn’t fair. It wasn’t right. Was he in Hell? This certainly felt like torture. It was—
He couldn’t—
It wasn’t fair! He’d waited a year, a whole year, to see Janus again, and they barely gave him ten seconds before—
And Roman, Roman who he’d never forgotten about, of course he hadn’t, Roman had been his first love, his first kiss, his first dance, his first everything.
And he was so, so glad he was here. He was so beautiful. And Patton had lay awake, sometimes, even beside Janus, wondering what his life would have looked like if Roman hadn’t died. Hadn’t been killed. He would never have traded it, of course, Janus gave him everything he’d ever known — his home, his children, his grandchildren. Janus understood him in a way nobody else ever could.
But Roman. His tragic, heroic Roman. He’d wanted all of that, too. Kids, a family, love. He would have given it to Patton, if he’d been able. He could have understood him like Janus did. It wasn’t his fault that the chance was taken from him. And he’d waited here. He’d waited here, ignoring his own potential heaven so he could share it with Patton. For nearly seventy years he sat here waiting, and what was that beside the mere year Patton had waited around for Janus? How could Patton possibly pick between them?
“I… Hold on, I think…” he began, breathless.
Two hands landed on Patton’s shoulders, squeezing and massaging, but they only make him jump slightly. “My dear prince, is everything alright?” Roman’s voice asked, low and worried in his ear. “Surely you yearn for the life we could have had.”
“Take your hands off him,” Janus snapped, but then he reached forwards and grabbed Patton’s arm, trying to pull him away.
“Excuse me, but I’m his husband!”
“So am I! And I can see he’s clearly not in the slightest bit overwhelmed.”
“Janus—” Patton croaked, as Roman tightened his grip.
“Patton, I think it’s best you make this decision quickly,” Missy said, as Roman and Janus started arguing properly.
Patton closed his eyes tightly. Their hands were pulling at him, and he was sure a couple of them had to be around his throat, because he just couldn’t work out how to draw a proper breath. Were they getting louder? None of them would ever choke him, of course, there was no way! Why were they yelling?
He opened his eyes and looked at Missy. “I can’t,” he choked, and everything went quiet. “I don’t know how, that isn’t something you can just ask me to do like it’s easy, please.”
“Pat,” Janus began slowly, like it was obvious, and, Patton supposed, to him it was. “We— Our whole lives, Patton. We had decades, we had children, grandchildren. You— I’m your husband, me.”
“You only got that because I died when I was barely old enough to legally drink!” Roman shrieked, and Patton felt his face crumple, his eyes locked on Missy.
“Please,” he whispered. “Can’t I— I mean, can’t… why do I have to choose?”
“You can only go to one eternity,” she said, like he was dumb.
“Over your… husband? He isn’t a dog. Look, how’s this: you don’t have to pick immediately. We can… How about, they each put on a day, a great day, where they try their very best to impress you, and then you can see which you’d rather spend eternity with!”
Patton stared at her, and he thought he might be sick. “A competition?” he whispered, and Roman crowed delightedly behind him, “A contest!”
Janus scoffed. “Here? We’re in a hotel, how are we supposed to show him—”
“Oh, you’d get full creative control. We can create anything you describe exactly as you describe it. Well— As long as it existed in the world before you died, that is.”
He scoffed again, clearly disapproving of the idea, but didn’t utter another word in protest. Patton shrugged the hands off him, eyes huge. “I can’t,” he repeated, because nobody much seemed to be understanding him.
“You gotta,” Missy said with a shrug. “Besides, this’ll be fun!”
“A wonderful day with me, after so long!” Roman cried, and Patton’s stomach flipped as he shot him a bright, crooked grin. “What could go wrong?”
Patton smiled up at him, reaching to hold his cheek gently. “It’s not so much that anything will go wrong, Ro, I just…”
“Throw caution to the wind, my dearest! We will have one beautiful day together, just like we did so often in our youths, and then we can spend eternity together.”
With a shaky sigh, Patton turned to Janus. The man was watching them, eyes flicking between Patton and Roman, until he met Patton’s eyes. He quirked a brow, and for the first time in his life, Patton wasn’t entirely sure what it meant.
“It’s… well. I suppose it’s your choice, isn’t it?”
Patton sniffed weakly. “I don’t know what to do,” he said.
“Well, your options are between pick now and forever hold your peace, or give them both a trial run,” Missy answered, and she was starting to lose the brightness, lose her patience.
He nodded. “Okay, okay. I’m sorry, okay, fine. We can— We can do the— the contest—” His voice cracked. “But what— what about the rest of today? Do we just— all three of us just— sit around? Together?”
Missy shrugged. “I guess. Or you could start right now.”
Immediately, Patton shook his head. “No, I— please, can I just— both, for right now, please?” He turned to them, and there must have been something in his eyes, or on his face, because both of them flinched for a second before surging closer.
“Of course,” Roman assured, as Janus started nodding quickly. “Of course, dearest, anything you want.”
Patton sighed shakily and nodded, and each of his hands were being held by one of the only two men he’d ever loved. He squeezed them, his eyes closed tightly, even as they shot glares at each other past his head.
"Oh! Oh no, Charming, please don't attack the Christmas tree," Roman exclaimed.
He scooped the little kitten off of the floor and away from the tree. Charming meowed at him - annoyed - but didn't try to squirm out of Roman's arms. Roman carefully lifted the kitten so he could make eye contact with him.
"You are no doubt the most adorable kitten in the world," Roman said. "But you are also very rude."
"No!" Patton said as he stepped into the room. "He's not rude, he's adorable." He walked over to Roman and Charming, and carefully petted the kitten's head. "A good boy!"
"He was attacking our poor, innocent Christmas tree! Very un-princely. We must teach him some manners!"
"No!" Patton complained. "He's a good boy, a perfect boy!"
"He's a little villain!"
Just as Roman finished saying that, Janus stepped into the room. He immediately made his way over to them and ran his finger down Charming's fluffy back.
"What are we discussing?" He asked.
"Charming attacked our poor Christmas tree, but Patton thinks he's still a good boy!"
"You can't be mean to him!" Patton exclaimed. "He's just a little baby!"
Janus hummed in thought.
"I think," Janus finally decided. "That he's an adorable little villain. A perfect, evil boy."
Warnings: Swearing (please tell me if there’s any I should add!!)
Note: This is a companion piece to @dragon-hair ‘s post! We decided to team up this Deceitber!! Also, tagging @jessibbb cause I know you like this ship (hope you don’t mind!)
Deceit’s boyfriends are quite protective of him. Well, that may be an understatement. Patton and Roman claim that they’d both kill and/or die for their scaled boyfriend. While it’s sweet, it’s a bit much, especially right now.
“I will face Mother Nature herself and demand she make the weather warmer for you, my dearest,” Roman claims, being his dramatic self. Deceit glares at him from his space on the couch. He’s in his oversized yellow hoodie and gloves, buried under multiple blankets, yet still shivering.
“You control the temperature in the Mindscape, dipshit,” Deceit hisses. Roman’s hand goes to his chest, making his usual Offended Princey Noises. Even if it doesn’t warm him up, the action does make Deceit laugh.
“Dandelion, please don’t call Roman a...that.” Patton has reappeared from wherever he went, a black garment and mug in his hands. “And Ro, Love, I know you're only trying to help, but annoying DeeDee isn’t getting him any warmer.”
Roman pouts as Deceit sticks his forked tongue out at the other. Patton walks over to him, handing him the mug. Deceit’s tongue flicks out again, smiling when he smells the hot chocolate. As he takes a sip, Patton slips a beanie on Deceit’s head.
“Better, Darling?” Roman asks, now sitting next to Deceit. He groans, digging his face into Roman’s shoulder.
“I’m still too cold,” Deceit whines, muffled by Roman’s shoulder. Roman wraps an arm around his cold boyfriend, then gives a little gasp.
“Pat!” he exclaims. “Come hold Snakespeare for me and I’ll be right back!” Deceit mutters a half-assed argument, but is silenced when he’s coaxed into Patton’s arms.
He stays there for a couple minutes, shivering into Patton as he sips his cocoa. It’s actually peaceful. Then Roman comes back.
“Got it!” Deceit sighs, letting his eyes crack open. He finds Roman crouched in front of him, hands hiding something behind his back.
“Roman, what are you hiding?” Deceit sighs, a smile betraying him. He can’t help it though, Roman looks adorable when he’s this excited.
“A gift!” he giggles. Roman pulls his arms out in front of him, revealing a scarf. It’s long and actually quite nice. It has stripes of yellow and pastel yellow, nicely matching the rest of his attire. “Can I put it on you?” His voice is back to that romantic softness Deceit always melts at, still holding a hint of excitement. Deceit can’t help but nod.
He pulls away from Patton just enough for Roman to wrap the scarf around him. Deceit can’t help but gasp when it’s on him. It’s so warm, it may as well be a heating pad. He buries his face into the garment, sighing at the warmth.
“Aww,” Patton coos, hugging his boyfriend closer. Deceit practically purrs into him, finally warm. Roman sits on the other side of him, leaning into him and holding one of his gloved hands.
“Thank you, Ro,” Deceit mutters. He feels one of his boyfriends carefully take his cocoa before he drifts into a peaceful, warm sleep, cuddled against his wonderful boyfriends.
