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Rona Keller

in the rain

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take time to notice by Rona Keller Via Flickr: Ah, the memories from an autumnal world through the windows of my uni :') film, mid November 2013

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Rona Keller - a picnic by the lake

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By Rona Keller

Stuttgart, Baden-Württemberg, Germany

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At the end of November

Nine years ago I moved to France for five months — a new beginning, a harsh cut, and a time I still look back on with a thankful heart. A few days before I left I took a photo that initiated a series that grew very dear to my heart. Sometimes, it is one of the only things that still really feels like me. Today, I took the tenth film self portrait of my series ’At the end of November’, and I haven’t even shared last year’s photo yet. So here we go. The whole series, with a new photo in a slightly different background than my autumn-heart is used to. I guess while looking for the right spot, I headed towards the little beech tree holding onto its leaves in midst of all the tall conifers for a reason.

At the end of 2017 I wrote ’2018, please let me be braver’. I think I was, and I think I wasn’t. There are so many things I could say about 2018. A new scar on my left hand, a broken tooth, a short-time broken heart. A new job, new energy and new inspiration. A new appreciation for the body I call home, and for the mind I will always be safe in. Words that tore me apart and feelings that fixed me. A lot of questions, a lot of heavy days. But in the end, it was the year that was more felt than it was documented, and that is very okay.

2018 was more felt that documented 2017 uncovered my longing for courage in all the right places 2016 encouraged me to let go 2015 was getting there, but not quite yet 2014 reminded me to take care of myself 2013 had me trying to hold onto connections I didn’t want to change 2012 ran past me but never let my hand go 2011 left me hopelessly restless and longing for more 2010 taught me what happiness is and friendship should be like

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the beauty of having a home von Rona Keller via Flickr: I’ve always had a hard time leaving a place my heart has become so close to (not only places I call home). Whenever the time of leaving something behind had come, I felt like I needed to take one last closer look, and yet I never saw enough to take all of the little things in to carry a memory of them with me in the future. Forgetting was the one thing I could never quite get over, and I found myself missing so much of what I had known and who I had been during my time at that place, even months later. Nowadays I even tend to be afraid of leaving when nothing is decided yet, but I have realized that all the photographs I take wherever I go will replace the feeling of not being able to grasp all of it in the end — at least at some point — and enable me to remember what once was so important to me. Always.

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a taste of November von Rona Keller via Flickr: foggy windows in the mornings, the color red and always staying cosy

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autumn in the city by Rona Keller