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[selkiesins]

Flea and Roope broke up.

I hate that theyre both hurting, but. I won’t lie, it makes me glad I took my sweet fuckin time with Bry. Even if it was slow. Even if I could’ve, probably should’ve acted on my feelings faster.

Things just feel so right with us now.

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What the fuck’s a ship, and why did my name come up three whole times?

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Everyone keeps telling me to go for it. Just try, find out, see what happens. Only one way to find out if things work out or not.

So why am I still so scared fucking shitless of the idea?

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Roope and Flea are getting married??

Like, I’m happy they’re happy. But fuckinf hell, I’m worried. Two months is no time to know someone. One month is even less time to have been dating. And then to get hitched in the morning, and married in the evening.

Roope’s had some bad exes. Like, Flea seems like a nice enough lad, but. Two months?? I don’t wanna see Roope getting absolutely shattered by this. Or Flea.

It’s freaking me out.

[selkiesins]

[selkiesins]

This… makes my chest feel a confusing mix of incredibly full, and… incredibly sad. Roope’s sweet.

But I don’t even know if I’d be fully happy back in the ocean anymore. I’ve met so many more good people than I wanted to. I thought I’d be able to come onto land, find the bastard, and be done with it. Easily slip back into the sea.

Nothing ever works out that easy though, huh?

[selkiesins]

stress.

I don’t want any of these expectations on me. Even if it’s a joke, that half-doesn’t feel like a joke. Fletcher was kidding, he said as much and I believe him, but Roope never agreed with him.

the thought makes me feel like a caged animal.

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I’m really happy for Roope and Fletcher. I really am, they suit each other.

And I know I’m a solitary creature, and I’m very much happy that way, but - I can’t help the small part of me that thinks that could’ve been me instead.

But hey, the threesomes are fun.