Somehow, the more think of Roots (possible) death, the sicker I feel.
I mean, I'm glad that it's possible she's still alive, I really, really am. But what makes me sick is that she could as well be dead.
And I'm just not ok with how her possible death was written, I mean, it'd make perfect sense if she is still alive, how she was shot, died off screen in the car or in the hospital, her corpse was shown and checked by Fusco, her dug up grave.
But if she's actually dead I just, ugh. And it's heaven and hell that the writers haven't confirmed anything but it drives me crazy every time, you know, I mean we all have head canons about our dead fav characters being alive and with their significant other (especially w|w) but for once it'd be nice if writers allowed us the joy of knowing our favs - who changed our lives, who touched is deeply, who make us happy, who cheer us up - are alive and together.
And it might've been to make it extra extra to hear Root's voice even though she's supposed to be dead and it might be a heart wrenching plot - Root being alive through TM - but I had rather Harold died or TM speaking like she usually does instead of that scenario of Root's possible death because it - again - feels like we don't deserve a happy ending, like we're not worth much while being alive, while breathing, while living and it might feel good to know you're not forgotten when you're dead and live in recordings and memories but that's not comforting when I look for something nice in my life, not my afterlife.
And it was even worth because she died off screen. I don't care about a damn surprise or shit, I'd rather seen Root die among her loved ones and at best - if at all, of course. Like, yeah, life is a tragedy and can be cruel but it just wasn't necessary, not when Harold gets to live on and see Grace and Root possibly dies alone in a hospital. That's why I can't really believe it, even though TM says she couldn't save her, Fusco saved Elias, and TM, with all her power, couldn't save Root? I just am not ok with that. So (even though I'm a bit salty) keep on believing that Root's still alive, otherwise it wouldn't be acceptable.