More Notes Of Errancy & A Station of Explanation From Me
WHAT IS THE SOCIAL UNDERGROUND? OR A TYPE OF A SOCIAL UNDERGROUND?
More Errant type notes: a station of explanation of sorts:
first, what is errant literature/writing to me: how do I define it in writing: errant is writing that is not as polished as it could be- a diamond in the rough as it were- and meandering- wandering from thought to thought sometimes not sequential - sometimes randomly moving from idea to idea more often than not.
folks in a social type underground- get abused verbally more often than not- I for example had/have no representation in terms of management and/or upper management- while I also have no attorney present
my family and I can hire one and many- so don't think I'm an gump just to be a gump. I am chris gump or was but I am not entirely a gump k. I create - this is what I do. Maybe I'm not what you or they or we
like or enjoy- oh, well. I am what I am- popeye man style k. I don't care if you think this or that
just show me - us - them - I respect- I respect very much everything- so I ask and want respect as well-
Why did I put a novel up for free- readership over money. I want readership - money is nice - its great- but I am personally okay and good financially right now. Heaven bless this. I am so fracking fortunate
I feel very happy and fortunate to have a caring family support- and all Im missing is close pals. But yeah,
that arrives or does not right? I don't expect anyone to want to be my pal- or care- but I'd love to be liked
and I need to be respected. That's what I want. I create for my occupation. That's what I do. I am so happy that I can be able to do this. I am top of the morning happy that I can...I didn't always feel
this way- I felt angry and pissed I hated myself and went from self - loathing to dislike to now accept.
One day I hope to like myself very much or more than just like for example.
In the underground social environment I as well as other folks have been put down over and over again-
we are not said- to have done our own work more often than not- we are said that we are liars and thieves of work - which is untrue but difficult to prove especially when I have communication issues- I can't express myself clearly all the time. boo-hoo I guess. it's like "neo" but I'm not neo - but that scene where
the smiths put the crazy web stuff over his mouth in the office and he can't speak....
imagine not being able to defend oneself- when people seem to be relentlessly attacking
and aaying oh, be mean to that individual because of this or that- wow. wow.
[ckhanson81]