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meh - shameless plug :} "hail mary" type promotion style (like bleak humor) or morbid humor or morose but I like bleak humor - has a nice ring I think better than dark humor?

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A LOVE REFRACTED IN A STREAM(2023)/ JAQUEJAW(2024) -And Some Notes of Creation concerning both works

ALRIAS, I started in 2017 - finished 2022 (with copyright) published june, 2023 - JAQUEJAW , also started in 2017- finished 2023- ALRIAS was published independently with BookBaby. JAQUEJAW (This first edition, errant, may be read free online) BookBaby did great work in terms of design of cover and formatting including the bookbinding which I find to be excellent as well. I have some issues with edits(as I edited the book myself) and will likely continue to do so- with Jaquejaw- I worked with an editing service based in New York-( freelance) which helped, but JJ is still an errant copy due to me- so I decided not to put out this version of Jaquejaw(traditionally and currently)these are my two novels so far. Jaquejaw and A Love Refracted In A Stream. With Jaquejaw , I had notes of a beginning scene with my character Benji Crudry at a campsite with youths recounting a tale, although a simillar scene present itself in that way within the Jaquejaw- these specific notes/scene did not present itself- that was the first scene I imagined- Crudry was speaking with a variety of youths around a campfire and we see what is later to be found, namely ...the Jaquejaw. Now, with A Love Refracted In A Stream, Raynold is a schizophrenic man who is addicted to drugs and alcohol and dropped out of college( a very curt snapshot). Crate, I see, as a manic depressive( although this detail is not explicitly stated) also he graduated from college(stated), and likely commits suicide at the end of the story - although this is not explicitly noted/stated.

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JAQUEJAW: A Horror Story(2024) "errant horror" read here: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1XTPVegcE0VJ3KG4MQwL4P-7JcQ5-XjucKYAXAjOhMXM/edit

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[creative restaurant idea] GrilaChz: nice grilled cheese sandwiches

Now Presenting an [right now] Fictive Restaurant Chain:

CREATIVE RESTAURANT IDEA: GRILACHZ : "Nice Grilled Cheese Sandwiches"

a) choose your bread:

baguette, rye, wheat, white, pumpernickel, multi-grain

b) choose your cheese:

swiss, cheddar, american, provolone, gouda

c) more than one cheese? 1) one cheese 2) multi-cheese

Done- Lets Grila some Chz!

an application(app) and/or a restaurant idea.

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To Help Everyone W/ No Money: In Terms of Micro Community Gardens/water fountains/Community Bread Baking Centers?

August 24, 2024

a) free fresh water fountains everywhere- how? on every block of every city and town worldwide

how much does this cost to implement?  Thirst solved? hopefully

b) micro community gardens in every community - most blocks/every block a micro garden -grows fruits and vegetables for barter/trade- we might have a list of goods/services I can trade to get vegetables/fruits 

for example- if i recite a poem- maybe that provides me with a bunch of carrots and apples? for example or something else- maybe if I trade in a painting or a piece of jewelry or something like this

I get a box of variety of fruits and vegetables?  or something along these lines

mind you - I should also be able to pay money for vegetables/fruits and/or barter/trade if need/want be.

why?  - micro community gardens ubiquitous  and totally everywhere- will ensure less hunger - water fountains everywhere- less thirst.   Sure some folks want need protein as well, but if I am hungry and there are fruits and vegetables to eat - this is a start to help and likely helpful I feel. I could be mistaken...it's nice to have anything/everything I want and need all of the time but if not - if I have absolutely no help

maybe by helping aid- or clean or recite a story/poem or trade a good I have or provide some sort of service with no money- I can drink fresh water and eat from a micro - fresh community garden

with plentiful fruits and veggies?

How much will it cost for us to create multiple micro community gardens/co-ops throughout cities/towns 

and the world?  how much? a million dollars? multi- millions likely - more like I'm guessing for the world?  300, 000 million dollars?  to create fresh cold drinking water fountains everywhere on every - multiple blocks in communities/town centers?

also I saw once on Youtube - In India, they have these bread style baking centers where there is this

oversized pan- in the middle of a community center and a ton of bread is being cooked/baked

again this is not welfare- this is an option for people who want and need this help and sustenance

is this not feasible? is it not correct to think along these lines? why is this not implemented?

is it because it is too much money to implement?  If 1000 or more billionaires/millionaires put in 1 million or less or more each, could they get what they want out of the deal transaction wise? would it be worth it to help the world in this way?

and why or why not?

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Life As A Game: a original and creative quote! Thank you folks.

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PUBHUBCLUB.org - online publication/book/newspaper/magazine clubs?

So now: the creative idea of the day:

PUB HUB CLUBS (pubhubclub.org?)

online publication clubs open online 24/7

with rotating book/magazine/newspaper rooms and moderators who arrive and read/moderate

and advise who will read next and then a new moderator comes in and on and on et cetera.

chat rooms/vid chats/ online reading/listening

where folks can listen to a plethora of books streaming live readings

live moderators/previously taped moderators/readers

go into rooms/ chat/talk while listening to a reading 

pay readers/indie writers/ subscribe to local and independent publications

can be monetized or not monetized based on preference?

links to books- magazines- newspapers- to buy/trade/sell?

links to world books/magazines/newspapers

and independent and/or established artists/publicists/editors/writers/musicians for example.

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Hybrid Type Therapy for all?

 how to help me and others if they need/want help?  many folks could use help if not all?

what is a hybrid therapy/or something like it? NOT TRADITIONAL group therapy- a new method by me and others who would do this?

a) hybrid- listen/talk with others who I would typically not talk with?

b) in hybrid therapy- pre-time: hang out before for and 

1:30 hour sessions - 20 minutes prior- adults in hybrid

drink max- 2 beers/ 2 glasses of a nice pomerol?

then cbd hemp gummies or smoke a spliff of cbd hemp?

cbd hemp is a body high not trippy in head like THC for example

although some folks like more intense tripping- than THC might

be better for those folks-

body high without mind trip at all- is CBD hemp or nothing or cigars/cigarillos?

but a good hybrid group therapy should begin 20 minutes prior with a glass of good pomerol

or Barolo or Amarone or cotes du rhone or chateau neuf du pape? for example

if the group is 10 members or 15 with a therapist/moderator?

there is this aspect in TRADITIONAL therapy where drinking/ CBD hemp smoking is NOT ALLOWED

I feel this model is wrong in general- 2 drinks max in/with group- and unlimited or as much as I want of CBD hemp gummies/cigars/cigarillos tabacco-as long as everyone agrees in the group to this?

plus traditional one on one therapy- with a professional therapist? therapist and associated work is/are not 

"shrinks"- yes the goal is to shrink the problem/issue but what matters is that the issue is solved and other issues may be/. and hopefully will be solved!

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(creative idea) BuyRage: Online/in person Garage/Estate Sales -buy/sell/trade/delivery via micro/macro hubs

BuyRage: "Buy any goods offered by sellers 24/7 online and/or in person" G-rated only. *hybrid trade: money and/or bartered good(s) as supplement for one another?*BuyRage micro hubs connected to the center of the state macro hubs- and its like a micro/macro hub- web where carriers go 50 miles or less and drop off goods - to a micro hub where buyers pick up their goods 24/7 and sign in the app that they are happy. parcel deliverers return and work 8 hours or less in terms of delivery? depending on needs/wants of the deliverers, the buyers and the sellers? 50 miles or less- micro/macro hubs in center of each state of union if only USA? 4 drivers? 50 miles one drives east,  one, west, one, north, one, south  in each state? then back and forth? connect sellers/buyers to carriers with innovative accountable 24/7 drop shipping/parcel delivery?

" buy/sell/trade online and/or in person estate/garage sales 24/7"

"Buy/sell right away- online and/or offline 24/7- receive goods same day" or money back to buyer and goods back to seller (next day or sooner- parcel carrier receives tips and bonuses based upon performance/length of time/experience with company and travel time- and seller/buyer provide tips to carrier.

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This is what I think/feel the universe could look like in form/function?

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[original flash fiction] Art Of An Act by Christopher Kenneth Hanson

Art Of An Act

    Lionel M. Blamed put on a suit coat and smeared pink lipstick across his lips.  With a coarse brush he brushed his fire engine red hair to and fro. Dread locks lilted over shadowy eyes as he wrote a final letter to a dear poet and one, he now considered a vital mentor. She was an elder lady.  She was now deceased. She was once a world renowned poet still touted to this day. Lionel was a great fan of her work. And one poem which stood out to him throughout the years that made him miss her completely. Her poem, Art Of An Act, was lauded and praised by millions.  In the final moments of finishing the poem, it had been reported that she had committed suicide via taking an excess of sleeping pills. The main cause of her death remains a mystery. He would write these endearing letters to her over the last thirty years. And though they were more curtailed than not, the passion and potency of his sentiments had persisted. Today was her birthday.  Today, he would be found dead.   He took out a case of cigarillos. He lit one as he adjusted his patterned tie and shirt collar.  He stared at himself solemnly then while pausing for hours on end to read more of her work.  She was said to be alone in her final years.  A form of depressed self isolation, to see whether she could still feel true sensation and believe in self sentience. She felt as though she were washed up and doomed to repeat mistakes she could not fully comprehend.  She had taught a generation of poets via her verse. Verse, which was formal and free, but that had two recurring themes running through: Art and Acting.  She was also fond of what she had termed: symmetric mirrored inverted verse and was fond of working with three stanzas and three verses in each stanza.  It was said, when Lionel died there was neatly placed by his bedside, the seminal works of the poet along with a bottle of unopened Pomerol. There were placed, nine cigarillos in threes there. The last of which had been cut and splayed open. There was incense and candles that had been lit.  Additionally, a smoking pipe was found near his left hand. It was fall then and an adjacent window had been left open, letting in a cool breeze.  Moments before passing, Lionel had an epiphany.  Three, six, nine- he repeated over and over as though a personal seance to evoke some type of magical essence.  In the end, Lionel lay on his back upon his bedroom floor.  His eyes remained open as was his mouth.  It was as though a lasting inspirational thought was cycling through his mind.  On a small bedside table, her seminal book was opened to its final page.  A verse which seemed to be a type of filter for all of her other collected works: altruism within altruism.

[christopher kenneth hanson]

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More Notes Of Errancy & A Station of Explanation From Me

WHAT IS THE SOCIAL UNDERGROUND? OR A TYPE OF A SOCIAL UNDERGROUND?

More Errant type notes: a station of explanation of sorts:

first, what is errant literature/writing to me: how do I define it in writing: errant is writing that is not as polished as it could be- a diamond in the rough as it were- and meandering- wandering from thought to thought sometimes not sequential - sometimes randomly moving from idea to idea more often than not.

folks in a social type underground- get abused verbally more often than not- I for example had/have no representation in terms of management and/or upper management- while I also have no attorney present

my family and I can hire one and many- so don't think I'm an gump just to be a gump.  I am chris gump or was but I am not entirely a gump k.  I create - this is what I do.  Maybe I'm not what you or they or we 

like or enjoy- oh, well.   I am what I am- popeye man style k.  I don't care if you think this or that

just show me - us - them - I respect- I respect very much everything- so I ask and want respect as well-

Why did I put a novel up for free- readership over money.  I want readership - money is nice - its great- but I am personally okay and good financially right now.  Heaven bless this.  I am so fracking fortunate

I feel very happy and fortunate to have a caring family support- and all Im missing is close pals.  But yeah, 

that arrives or does not right?  I don't expect anyone to want to be my pal- or care- but I'd love to be liked

and I need to be respected.  That's what I want.  I create for my occupation. That's what I do.  I am so happy that I can be able to do this.  I am top of the morning happy that I can...I didn't always feel

this way- I felt angry and pissed I hated myself and went from self - loathing to dislike to now accept.

One day I hope to like myself very much or more than just like for example.  

In the underground social environment I as well as other folks have been put down over and over again- 

we are not said- to have done our own work more often than not- we are said that we are liars and thieves of work - which is untrue but difficult to prove especially when I have communication issues- I can't express myself clearly all the time.  boo-hoo I guess. it's like "neo" but I'm not neo - but that scene where

the smiths put the crazy web stuff over his mouth in the office and he can't speak....

imagine not being able to defend oneself- when people seem to be relentlessly attacking 

and aaying oh, be mean to that individual because of this or that- wow. wow.

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To Dislike Myself and Shame Myself On Repeat

Like The Pissing Contest Rolls On: aka how to shame myself over and over again:

 I am misunderstood- deeply misunderstood

I am not the only one- but I am one of the ones who is.

People generally think - oh he raps- he dumb as fuck. Fuck them.

Fuck them.  some people think this.  what the fuck do they know k.

I write poetry - I used to hip hop - I wrote two novels.

But oh, he's a rapper- he dumb. He can't speak like this or that

his rhetoric is greasy and slick and dumb. fuck that.

Do your due dilligence and find out who we really are. Or is this too difficult?

is it too time consuming? is it? well I never. Oh, how droll.  but I guess

that's an act too- guess what you may be acting but I'm not. I personally

have more sides than fucking sides have sides k.  and I am not going to 

take being misunderstood lightly.

I wrote a poetry book in 2021- Mourning at the sensation station

One of the poems- I mispelled a dear poet name _ I spelled Madame Sylvia Plath

as "Sylivia Plath" And I fucked up. I didn't do it to be an asshole and yet I didn't 

check my work carefully enough- so I fucked up- it's something I live with permanently now

because I feel like a dumb charlatan sleazy knave k and I have to live with this.  It haunts me and 

I am haunted by my dislike of myself daily. Oh- poor me! oh, have pity oh! chris gump.

yeah.  and so, I understand when I submit to publications in terms of writing

that I have a) no scholastic poetic lineage to claim

and b) I am an uncouth lout to most if not everyone.

thanks , Chris Gump. Tbanks.

[christopher kenneth hanson]

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Getting Ripped by Amazon and Lulu Press And no transparency for creatives on these platforms for example.

July 20, 2024

 Preface: the following I should of put up before when I posted my poetry books and juvenile fiction on amazon.  And it is embarrassing to say, but I will state this so that I don't lose more money to amazon.com

Amazon had create space before and I put all my poetry books and juvenile fiction up on amazon's create space.  I elected to get their free isbn numbers or the asin number and that, I found to be a mistake.

For createspace was disbanded after I put all my books up.  Except for "A Love Refracted In A Stream"

because I went through BookBaby in terms of publishing and they do the money exchange with authors rather than Amazon itself. doesn't pay me royalties at all now.  They stopped after create space was disbanded- and thrown out...I don't get any money for my amazon books in other words

people may be buying my books but I can't tell...there is no transparency....as far as I can tell I my books are being sold and someone may be buying them but I am receiving no monies/no royalties for many years now and since create space was disbanded.

and this sucks! but I don't know anything about my books- there is no transparency. my novel sells a little here and there, but I am recieving royalties and likely getting less money too because places are still taking large cuts of royalties from me.

Please do me a favor - don't buy my books on amazon! I realized this too late....buy my fiction novel "A LOVE REFRACTED IN A STREAM" if you want but I can't see a transparent record from Bookbaby either that is they don't share what my sales are transparently.  So I am getting some monies, but likely being shafted there too at least- I don't know by how much.

and then Lulu press the book making company/ebooks- I put Jaquejaw up there paid for my bowker isbn number from Bowker cost me good money then Lulu erased my Jaquejaw copy and document after it was pending- there was NO Trace like it was not even ever created.  Just a blank page where once was my book with a nice cover and document - I clicked on my name in the login and poof- nothing was there - there was the book pending once and then a day later I wrote customer service and nothing. nothing.

but my juvenile fiction and poetry is being ripped from me for a long time now.....

Thanks for understanding folks.

Sincerely, Christopher.

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Best Of X(twitter) from ck(so far) CURRENT POLITICS 2024 [contra-dumb F*CKS]

The American Military and Intelligence protect Americans and our associated freedoms. They protect us so we all can live in a great country/world...without them...who the heck knows what.

any republican or anyone else who says our military and intelligence are "fools" or any other stupid term HAVE NOT been to war -not seen Anything like that so don't F*CKING Slander good heros when you wouldn't do sh*t and DONT KNOW SH*T About it! I don't know war either...

but I don't slander and call our military and intelligence fools and ingrates and feckless and worthless and *he/they/smarmy republicans do/does this because of abuse- and abuse from his father he hates the military and intelligence because of daddy

see this article on hurting/slandering our military/intelligence:

[https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow-show/maddowblog/trump-trashes-us-military-leaders-dumbest-people-rcna120789]

h- he/republicans tolerate military and intelligence when they do HIS/their bidding- but oh, otherwise F*CK THEM AND so F*CK YOU Republicans- not all but the ones who do/ think this way- F*CK OFF

It is not enough for conservatives to win elections. If we are going to rescue the country from the grip of the radical Left, we need both a governing agenda and the right people in place, ready to carry this agenda out on day one of the next conservative administration.

(the above is from: [ https://www.project2025.org/about/about-project-2025/] 

*not all Democrats are "RADICAL LEFT" some are independents, some are capitalists, some are moderates, some are libertarians, some are this/some are that- the republicans that "do this/say this" make BLANKET GENERALIZATIONS- remind you of any other terrorist groups- ASSESS INDIVIDUAL BY INDIVIDUAL ALWAYS!

additional folks:

The Biden administration has failed us time and time again. Our country needs Republican leadership now more than ever. from this: [ https://gopconvention2024.com] *which times exactly Republicans- have the Dems failed ? which F*CKING TIMES YOU LIARS!

The Biden Admin has for example: a) saved us from the pandemic b) given forgiveness for student debt and loans for students c) brought manufacturing jobs/postions back to America en masse d) made America wonderful via improvement via construction in terms of transportation - see this : infrastructure: [ https://www.whitehouse.gov/build/]

this has only to do with me now:

I believe in Heaven and Hell- I believe planet life is a "testing area" of sorts? there are many Job(s) the tested one from the Bible- I'm not sure though- I believe that Buddha and Jesus Christ would have been good/great pals if they met/if they had met- and I believe they were respectful/are respectful- sincere- beautiful- kind-hearted- gentle-polite- this is my additional opinion- it has only to do with my belief set. I believe to believe in Jesus and Buddha (if you follow them/if I) then we behave sincerely as they would.

Heaven Bless America! life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness for all citizens and hopefully the World(s).

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on freedom(s) - Group v. Individual identities - underground v. above ground

we should have rights to a fair and balanced trial- if we are accused of something/anything (around the world)

some folks are innocent and they have been incarcerated- why?

how do we know whether someone is innocent or not?

why are innocent people sometimes/not often but often enough to

be hurtful- are we not innocent untll proven guilty? what happens if we are innocent but are locked away?

these folks have no representation - no attorneys?

some folks from the "underground" arts/music/writing and other folks are pushed under "the rug" Oh, nothing to see here...just push them under the above ground rug so to speak and back into the sea

where they may drown! what the heck is going on. Sometimes this happens- "Above ground" authority "type" figures like but not limited to folks in leadership type roles - above ground- may - not all the time but often enough- they will- hmmm push the underground folks

attempting to "Rise above and around" further underground.

What is the underground scene in arts/music/writing?

In writing we don't have agents/representation/ a publishing house

attorneys/management/publicists etc. - above ground= fame/popularity = territorial type pissings. above ground folks in general not always but perhaps more often than not feel

underground folks are rising up and around in their territory and by heavens it's my territory- they say- mine- you can't have it at all

underground knave- vacuous tit mouse! petite disgruntled philistine!

slovenly lout, get thee gone - oh, how droll, well I never

balderdash, I hear none of it! old money/new money=hybrid money?

abuse sucks. some folks are verbally abused. they take it out on everyone else- do they take it out on themselves? if I put the hurt on myself or do I put the hurt onto others? these are my options?

smarminess is sycophancy- obsequious behavior - they are not leaders - they are followers. leaders don't care about following others- but good leaders care about others and have empathy * for all- I would not see anyone hurt - but if someone is a criminal should they not be locked up? and if not why not?

context/intent- what is the context - what is the intent

what is the intent within a specific context?

The group attributes are secondary to individuals. Individual thought

and behavior is more "telling" than the group. assess individual by individual- saying all the individuals within a group are "This and that"

or "this or that" is wrong. There are some individuals within the group who do not believe exactly and precisely the "same" as the others within the group- there are some individuals who do believe "this" but not "that" there are some individuals that believe in neither this nor that but believe that y is interesting and embellishes an idea of x and y with an association of z for instance. To say a group of people are all the same is a gross generalization or a blanket generalization. A cover up. A ploy to suppress the opinions and thoughts/behaviors of other individuals within said group.

everthinc is a fictive company right now- I made it up...but I hope one day to have everthinc libraries where I may store books, magazines, newspapers. there will be cd players and audio tape players with cds and cassette tapes. this is the media room. and the books, magazines, and newspapers may be bought/sold/borrowed

or simply read in the pleasant lounge with the coffee, tea, and

black and mild cigars or yeah.

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Unknown: computer scientists/communication folks unite to help the world(s)

Unknown: a computer science/communication/ "white hat" hacktivism group that travels the world(s) - acting in diplomacy/with goodness and thoughtfulness/help communicate with "other" civilizations from the past/present/future and they work with everthinc- rather they are the first to "meet/greet/listen/talk" with friends/family/associates/business/chill et cetera.

Unknown: "We Are Prescient" or (we are pre-knowing) they typically know what happens before or that is the goal to understand and know before tis known as it were :}

and by utilizing their computer skills/communication/language skills

they can talk to AI and "Quantum AI" or "Deity AI" for example.

Quantum AI to me, means artificial intelligence moving and/or thinking as an object as quantum motion moves/acts for example-

that is: in and out of existence, up and around, down and around, ubiquitous through time zones and past, present, future, or has/have the ability to do so.

Thank you folks... Unknown: pals for anonymous as well?