#runner chaser

[varikascanvas]

3/15/20

I have realized that I am the Divine Masculine in the twin flame dynamic, despite the fact that I feel quite androgynous and balanced energetically. I never felt like I was totally female, but I don’t feel like I could classify myself as a male either. This has been a struggle for me since childhood and I’m still trying to figure what my identity is. I’m starting to feel like she/her pronouns don’t do it for me anymore. I know we all have DM & DF energies within, but the DM side predominates every time even though I am biologically female. It’s quite fascinating.

[varikascanvas]

1/23/20

I’ve realized something...

the only way I can get my TF back is to stop chasing her. I’m done chasing her. I can feel her sorrow in my dreams in the 5D because I’m not obsessing and energetically supporting her like I used to. But my obsession only prolongs the runner-chaser dynamic and delays our union even further.

If I want us to be together, I need to stop contributing to the problem. I need to surrender to divine timing.

I’m sad because I love her so intensely, but I need focus on my self-worth and improve my life.