OH MY GOD THE ABSOLUTE EXCITEMENT
OKAY OKAY OKAY I'M SO EXCITED I DON'T KNOW HOW TO TELL THIS STORY BEST
LET'S MAKE A LIST OK
i find a story by an author that orphaned their account, and i love that story so shucking much that it stays with me SO MUCH that i'm actually inspired to write a whole sequence fic based on that premise
this fic stays in my mind
i thought of it as recently as on my little walk i took one hour ago
i go and search for thomesa fics to allieviate my bad feelings i have bc of my migraine yes i get a lot of migraines i hate them pls send love
i find a story
magnificent story
book based, AU where thomas dies instead of teresa. i click on it, curious. it's a wonderful story that follows several weeks/months on the safe haven island. it's got everything. teresa who loved thomas. teresa who understands that minho, too, loved thomas. teresa + minho. slowly. books. knitting. teresa becomes a doctor - it's got EVERYTHING i love, absolutely shucking everything
i'm amazed
i leave a comment
a loooooong ass comment
because i'm amazed
i check the date
2015
sad.
i try to check out the account (runner_love)
see that it's orphaned
i'm sad
but then - a little voice inside my head - don't i know that username?
is that not the author of that one fic i absolutely loved and based a thominho angst fic on????
my fingers shake as i click my way through the "related works" section on my ao3
i click on it
and there, THERE, is that same account!
my breath goes shallow
i'm amazed
i've found them again!
a thought hits me
i type in their username in the ao3 search field
and -
brace yourselves -
I FIND OTHER FICS
A 30 CHAPTER FIC
in total there is *3* more fics!
i squeal
i giggle
i cackle
i laugh
all my dreams have come true
i want to meet and gush to this person now so badly
i will probably never be able to do that.
but i get to read 3 more of their stories
- one of them contains love letters
it's called "love, thomas". and it's thomesa.
my heart yearns. bleeds. laughs.
it is whole again.
i am whole again.
the end
thank you for staying with me througout this story. if anyone would ever find the author of these fics, well, let's just say eternal gratitude wouldn't even begin to describe it.












