#rupige irl

[mc-rupige]

I had the opportunity today to explain a few people how weird is the fandom

And I realized that while I want to them to join the fandom( so I can talk to someone about it irl) I ultimately don't wanna them to because you know it's a very difficult fandom to join and start to watch and learn about the lore

Like I made a few examples of some concepts in dsmp:

the Philza family tree (both old and new Canon)

The eggpire and the pro-omelettes movement

How technically both ninja and corpse are canon

The time travel

The wars

the angst that is karl-quackity-sapnap

Dadboyhalo and sonnap

I didn't even talked deeply about everything and I think I talked for like 20 minutes?

they have their own fandom to worry about can I really ask them to join this mess?

[mc-rupige]

Half joking but all this talk about curly hair is making me suddenly aware that i can't recognize witch type of curly hair i have because i treat them really badly

[mc-rupige]

* me sitted in a corner everytime there is a lmanberg/ dream lore because i accidentally followed too many people with different opinions than mine to learn about other part of the fandom but at the same time don't agree with them and don't wanna look mean reblogging from them and adding my takes*

[mc-rupige]

On one hand alec benjamin being involved with dream and his music is really cool (i quite like alec benjamin songs ).... On the other my ace self have to see thirsty post about dream photos for the next few hours :|

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Why cool blogs sometimes like/reblog my shit? Like I'm sitting here and then boom cool people are in my notifications and I'm just :O

[mc-rupige]

You know the drawing of quackity i posted wip yesterday? I'm continuing it but I'm in "why should i continue this drawing if it's crap" phase

God i hate it..... Welp I'm still trying to finish it even if i can literally pin point all that is wrong to it because i haven't finished something in literally weeks and it feel really stupid not to finish it

... BUT IT IS ALSO LIKE 23.53 and i wanna coffee BUT IT'S 23.53

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i still would love the hunters to win because i love them BUT ALSO it makes sense for dream to win.....

Aaaaaaaaaah I'm slightly mad i can't see it live maybe gonna try to check every now and then

[mc-rupige]

I really wish to have a drawing buddy like someone i can draw with and fuck around and compare drawings. I have done this in a few discord calls and it was really nice and it kept me motivated while working on both personal and school projects.

The problem it feels so awkward to go and say: "hey friend/acquaintance do you wanna go on a voice call together and draw? "In particular when you are drawing different things.

I even though "fuck it I'm gonna stream on twitch so people can tell if the drawing is off and so that i feel bad if a don't finish a drawing per session" BUT THAT FEELS pretty bad as a reason to start streaming (also i don't think that I'm that good at drawing that people would just stop and talk and I'm also pretty anxious and will probably shut down at the first bad thing that happens)

So yeah a drawing buddy