#rustys brain worms

[hopelessavian]

Hey so what if I wrote a charthur fic. And titled it something from take me to church is that cliche one person says yes and I will start writing rdr fanfic.

[hopelessavian]

SPOILERS FOR RDR2

Probably the most stupid decision I made was naming my race horse Sean, bc at the time I thought it was a sweet homage or whatever and I am far too attached to this game. Imagine my horror when I'm omw to a stranger mission past Annesburg and get ambushed by fucking Murfees. And they KILL MY HORSE.

My dumbass forgot to buy horse reviver.

Not only did I ADORE that horse, he was seven hundred dollars lmaoooo.... I've got three others, but still.

[hopelessavian]

Hi my friend made me listen to some sleep token songs today, and uhhh this happened. (If you point out that I accidentally took Grians feet away you're homophobic)

[hopelessavian]

Hi I've been playing rdr2 recently and

(kinda spoilers ahead ig???)

Keiran going for his weapons when the Pinkertons threaten Dutch along w everyone else makes me physically ill I love him so fucking much Keiran Duffy ily.

In related news I'm thinking of writing a fanfiction that's just everybody deciding to buy a ranch and live in a little settlement and everything goes okay and basically it's just everything I wish would happen. Would anyone be interested. IDC if no I'm still writing it.

[hopelessavian]

Hear me out.

Modern au Charthur, but Arthur was married to Mary previously and had a daughter with her, n has her most weekdays and Charles treats her like a princess and they're a happy family and nobody dies

(this is the concept of a thing I've been working on w my husband lol, I know it takes Alot of 'what if' but I mostly just wanted parental Charthur stuff)

[hopelessavian]

You know, I suppose in a way I am closer to John than I'd like. It feels so weird, seeing how everyone has moved on from the gang n' started their own lives. How they're all happy and I'm still here chasing bounties and such. Maybe I'm reading too much into a silly game, but it almost makes me feel sad.

[hopelessavian]

I've been incredibly down in the dumps for a few months, and I decided to buy and obsessively play RDR2 for my birthday, thinking it'd help.

Just finished the game.

It didn't help.

I miss my horses :(

[hopelessavian]

"Oh Rusty, Rusty, what's your personal hell?"

Being alive.

Also cleaning out old Tupperware from the fridge, that's pretty bad too.