RYAN: -back at it again at the silvah dollah. it's kinda nice to have someplace new to stalk around the later hours of the day. she knows it's not exactly advisable for various reasons to transportalize out onto the satelite isolated far from her home. but... whatever. it's comfortable here and finding comfort elsewhere, somewhere more familiar, is a difficult task for her.-
RYAN: -she's hanging out at the counter again, poking at the remaining contents of a strawberry milkshake and being far less chatty than she was yesterday.-
SILVAH: -Given that there's not really much ON this station other than Skaianet research facilities, private research facilities and basically....the one resturaunt at least there's not much trouble Ryan can get up to up here. Silvah is just finishing cleaning and restoring his stocks from last night. He stayed up far too late and got a little drunk himself, but he's in good spirits. He's fairly sure the reopening was rousing success and that he's gonna make back the money he spent on the deck. Big man is boppin with the radio as he works until he finally makes his way back behind the counter and sees Ryan there. His fins flick.-
SILVAH: I thought I made a regular outta you.
RYAN: -perks up, immediately putting on a smile when she hears his voice, but it's definitely half hearted.-
RYAN: naturally??? youve got some great vibes going on here. :blush:
SILVAH: I built it that way babycakes, but that don't mean it ain't nice to hear.
SILVAH: -starts restocking the baked goods displays as they chitchat.-
SILVAH: You had some pretty good vibes yourself last night. -Not so much today though, huh? He's peepin on her.-
RYAN: again. naturally! as a new regular youll soon discover im always the life of the party. :wink: -leans on the counter, chin in her hand.-
SILVAH: That's quite a claim. Maybe I should think about buyin a leaderboard. Huh huh.
SILVAH: Sure are cute though. Feel like I should be payin you to sit there and look pretty.
RYAN: well im not about to turn down that offer. :hugging:
RYAN: ive got a pretty lengthy resume as a professional cutie. you wouldnt regret the decision.
SILVAH: Now, now. I'm not totally sold. You strike me as a troublemaker too.
SILVAH: Acutally now that I'm thinkin about it, the round robin never made it to ya.
SILVAH: What's your story?
RYAN: its not polite to ask a lady such questions...
RYAN: which is definitely NOT something a troublemaker would say. :thinking:
SILVAH: Keepin it close to the vest I see. That's fine. I'll get it out of ya eventually.
SILVAH: Food is great at makin people talk.
RYAN: -chinhands intensifies.- yeah? what do you find is the best thing to feed a person to get them to share their life story?
SILVAH: Somethin' caffeinated.
SILVAH: I'll tell you what- I'm crossin strawberry milkshakes off the list as of today.
RYAN: -giggles. geez... it feels good to laugh.-
RYAN: okay fine. youve fed me enough lines to change my tune. :stuck_out_tongue:
RYAN: youre right about me... i am a troublemaker. but im trying to cut back these days.
SILVAH: -Seems satisfied at getting her to laugh. And to crack.-
SILVAH: Respect, little lady. It's not easy.
SILVAH: I'm also one of those.
RYAN: yeah? what are your vices?
RYAN: mine incluuuuude... -checks them off on her fingers as she says them in an attempt to keep it light.- running away. all manner of narcotics. and beautiful sad men and women that only break your heart.
RYAN: so you know. the standard really.
SILVAH: You're right. That is a hell of a resume. -Scratches under his fat chin with Robut hand.-
SILVAH: Lesee....I'm right there with ya on runnin away. Dissapointin my family. Sexual deviancy. An you may have noticed that I like to eat a lil bit.
SILVAH: We already got the makins of a pretty good country song. Too bad that's not my favorite genre.
RYAN: hehehe. id love to inspire any kinda song really.
RYAN: but other than that it seems weve got a lot in common. -sips milkshake.-
RYAN: ive been... disappointing a lot of people for a long time. but i feel like i really dropped the fucking ball again recently. :weary:
SILVAH: -Now he's got both fins angled towards her.- You wanna get into it?
SILVAH: Don't gotta. But if you feel like you need to I have time.
SILVAH: That's how I got so fat. I'm full of secrets.
RYAN: -snickers and shrugs, swirling the straw around in the glass thoughtfully.- well... guess theres no harm in it.
RYAN: since youre being so nice and charming. :wink:
RYAN: things have just been... i dunno.
RYAN: first i fell off the wagon.
RYAN: definitely disappointed my family... and probably my boyfriend. or like. whatever our deal even is. -sighs.-
RYAN: then my ex comes along and starts pulling some burn book bullshit... spilling all my secrets. pissing off my friends. making aforementioned romantic relationship all the more complicated. i think.
RYAN: ugh. -just sighs. it's hard to really dig deep when it's all so frustrating, so she just kinda slumps a little.-
SILVAH: Mm. Did ya say some things you regret?
RYAN: -nods slowly, pouting a little.-
RYAN: yeah. so much stupid shit.
RYAN: im trying to fix things but... i dont know--
RYAN: i dont know what im doing half the time.
SILVAH: -Pauses for a minuite, and while he's processing all the vibes he's picking up from her he's making himself look busy, which is something he's pretty practiced at by now.-
SILVAH: It's not the easy route. It's easier to keep cuttin out. Start over somewhere where they don't know ya. But that would be a waste in the long run.
SILVAH: If you keep tryin eventually they'll see the effort and appreciate it. Even if you're graspin at straws and you say all the wrong shit.
RYAN: -peers up at him, finding that answer... strangely comforting. she gets the sense he understands. maybe because of his own experiences, or just because he's used to dealing with sad sacks like her. it was kind of a cliche. in any case, she's quiet for a moment as she thinks it all over too. her voice is a little hushed when she does speak, a bit embarrassed by admitting the things she is... but knowing full well she needs to say it.-
RYAN: i feel like my efforts are pushing him away.
RYAN: alienating him cuz he feels guilty too. hes always stuck in his own head.
RYAN: i think he feels like hes not good enough. but i dont really get it. im the one who kept running away.
RYAN: he never did anything wrong. at least i dont think he did. it just-- a shitty time. and i dunno if its ever gonna pass so long as im around to remind him that-- fuck.
RYAN: -puts her head in her hand with a sigh.- sorry im not making sense anymore.
SILVAH: -Frowns as he takes this in, and at the same time takes in extra information. All her good intentions, the desperation that go along with them.- Y'know most of the time tryin to anticipate what someone's gonna do or why they feel the way they feel is real misleadin. Unless you have a real blunt discussion about it, you could never know. You might've fucked up, but it don't mean every bad thing that person's feelin is your fault.
SILVAH: The stuff you can pin down as yours is what you should concentrate on, is what I'm sayin.
RYAN: -peers up from behind her hand, eyes glossy with sadness but... there's some hope too. she laughs a little, trying not to seem too broken up about the stuff going on in her head.-
RYAN: wanna know im making someone happy for once.
SILVAH: -She seems so vulnerable, it almost hurts to look. They're barely acquaintances at this point, but he doesn't care, he's gonna lightly reach out and touch her hand with his non robotic one.- You got yourself a super acheivable goal there, blondie. I think you're gonna be ok.
SILVAH: -Backs it up with a warm smile too. Believe him. He belives in you!-
RYAN: -well... it's hard not to smile when it feels like someone believes in you. and for some reason, in this moment she kind of believes it too. she doesn't mind the touch. she welcomes it in fact, feeling a little bit touch starved lately.-
RYAN: ill definitely be okay if i keep coming back for these milkshakes...
SILVAH: Hah! You think I'm gonna let you keep orderin just milkshakes.
SILVAH: -Pats her hand, gives it a gentle little squeeze and then releases her.-
RYAN: -giggles again. what a big softie...- i thought the customer was always right???? rude ass...
SILVAH: -Laughs with her. Huh huh huh.- I'mma personally fight whoever came up with that horse shite. The customer ain't right even half the time, let alone always.
SILVAH: This is the only place in the goddamn world where I control everythin. It ain't a fuckin democracy.
RYAN: -snorts and then full on cackles.- geez!!! then i guess ill have to refer to your expert opinion every day im here. :wink:
SILVAH: Heh heh. S'long as its real food some of the time I'll be a happy clam.
