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[cherryb33]

In case my blog gets deleted

DeviantArt I post here a lot and commissions are open: https://www.deviantart.com/kwhittski

Newgrounds. I don’t post a lot on here but I might use it for mainly NSFW stuff: https://www.newgrounds.com/

Fur Affinity. Mostly NSFW stuff: http://www.furaffinity.net/user/kwhittski/

Commishies. I post a lot of YCHs. I’m starting to do adopts if anyone is interested: https://ping.commishes.com/user/kwhittski/

Twitter. Mostly retweets and whatever is on my stoned mind: https://twitter.com/cherryB33z

Derpibooru. Most if not all of my pony stuff is on here: https://derpibooru.org/profiles/Kaywhitt

Twitch. I do want to start game streams but my computer isn’t powerful enough to do so: https://www.twitch.tv/cherryb335

Picarto. I stream when I can. Right now I can’t cause my internet isn’t very good: https://picarto.tv/kwhittski

Steam. Play games with me: SpoopyBuns

[cherryb33]

Hey

It's my bithday. I 20 now.

[cherryb33]

Does anyone mind if I post my mental health stuff?

[cherryb33]

My blog might be shut down since some of it does contain nsfw stuff. If this does happen I have other blogs that aren't nsfw, askgothpinkie and marblepie-replies.

[cherryb33]

I just hit a random depression spike and I just need to vent about.

I think about things that I've done in the past, weather they're good or bad they make me upset. Probably it's cause I think "where has the time gone?"

With the bad memories, it's usually stuff I've said or did that I've done that wasn't appropriate. Like my personality. It feels like I'm annoying as hell and whenever I talk to someone I feel like a burden to them.

Sometimes I believe that people think that I'm an idiot, retarded, or too stupid enough to make it through life. I know the real world isn't all rainbows and unicorns, it's hard, and I know that but it seems like no one believes me when I tell them that I know.

[cherryb33]

Hey YouTube is going to shit sooo follow me on vid.me

https://vid.me/kwhittski

[cherryb33]

I feel like shit. I hope it wasn't that orange chicken I ate yesterday. I want more of it cause it's so damn good.

[cherryb33]

Depression is getting me good...

I've been having gender identity crisis lately and I thought I found something that would help, drag. So I tried talking to lover about it last night, who is straight, and they went silent.... I've never felt more abandoned in my life I tried talking to them this morning and they're still not talking. (I don't know if they're at work or not.) I just wanted they're opinion on it, not heart breaking silence...