#ryuuatsu

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so it's common in bsd fandom that "hall and outes - out of touch" is sskk theme song and i wanted to dig deeper into the meaning of the song and how it may correlate with sskk

as a warning: english isn't my first language so don't expect excellent grammar there, don't be harsh with me thank you. let's begin:

«shake it up is all that we know; using the bodies up as we go; i'm waking up to fantasy» – both atsushi and akutagawa grew up in an unhealthy environment so "shaking" out of anger and hunger (atsushi) or out of fear of an authority (akutagawa) is "all that they know". akutagawa "walks up to fantasy", by "fantasy" meaning that dazai would have recognized him if akutagawa was "strong" enough

«the shades all around aren't the colors we used to see» – both akutagawa and atsushi seeing new shades when they're recruited to their organization. atsushi seeing unusual "colors" after being kicked out of an orphanage where he was abused to ada; akutagawa seeing his previous "shades" from life in the slums flew away after he joined the pm, instead , new ones fall into that place (though they didn't necessarily got brighter)

«broken ice still melts in the sun» – akutagawa as "broken ice" and atsushi as the "sun". like how akutagawa stopped killing because of his promise to atsushi or how his worldview got challenged by atsu (and the other way around)

«and times that are broken can often be one again» – they're both broken: by dazai or the orphanage director yet with the help of another they heal. for example in the battle on the ship, akutagawa uses another piece of clothing besides coat dazai gave him, showing that saving atsushi was his own decision; atsushi is gradually getting rid of his "good victim, bad victim" mentality, which was a response to the trauma of abuse

«we're soul alone; and soul really matters to me» – self-explanatory. both of them looks at what's inside rather than the appearance and/or how people positions themselves to be (akutagawa with fukuchi, atsushi, partially kyouka; atsushi with kyouka, lucy, dazai, partially akutagawa). and both form a "soul alone"

«take a look around; you're out of touch; i'm out of time» – also self-explanatory. akutagawa is out of atsushi's range due to vampirism; akutagawa is out of time because of his lung disease

«but i'm out of my head when you're not around» – atsushi hallucinating akutagawa after his death

«reaching out for something to hold; looking for a love where the climate is cold» – as i said earlier, both akutagawa and atsushi grew in destructive conditions and seeks for recognition, warmth and love. the 2nd line could be interpreted as akutagawa searching for a love in the port mafia – where the climate is cold

«manic moves and drowsy dreams; or living in the middle between the two extremes» – akutagawa's yearning for recognition could be described as "manic" and a "drowsy dream", same as atsushi's craving for a "proof" that he's worthy to live. port mafia and armed detective agency are "two extremes" between whom they both live in.

«smoking guns hot to the touch; would cool down if we didn't use them so much, yeah» – the term "smoking guns" is often used metaphorically to refer to clear evidence or proof of wrongdoing or a crime. in context of sskk i'd say it means them "hating" each other and constantly refusing to acknowledge/properly cooperate with one another. this situation "would cool down" if they "didn't use" their hatred so much and perhaps they could even empathize and understand each other

in conclusion: i hate conclusions. sskk gay and "out of touch" is their song. yeah.

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“t4t mlm sskk” i shout. i immediately get rocks thrown at me

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