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Altri 6 triangoli isosceli con angoli multipli di 15°

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Zellige 289 - Triangolo 3/8

Triangolo isoscele con angolo 135°.

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This is such a typical picture but it sticks out in my mind as one of the most pivotal moments of my life. Late 2010 or early 2011.

I love this horse unicorn to death. I did since the moment I met him. I didn’t think I could love another horse like I love Casper but he blew my skepticism out of the water. I can count on one hand, maybe two, the number of people I love equally or more than him (and her).

This pic was after I graduated. So I don’t even know why I was there on a Saturday. Probably a half-hearted effort to look for comfort. His other rider had to catch a flight, so she asked if I would grain him after her ride. I sat there on the dead grass while he grazed….

And I felt nothing. Absolutely nothing. Not really numb, just… blank. And maybe a little bit defeated. But that’s when I knew something was terribly wrong. I should’ve felt overjoyed just to bask in his presence, like I always had….

I had been in denial that I was experiencing worse and worse symptoms of depression. I was ignorant at the time and thought emotions were for sissies and mental illnesses were for ‘weaker’ people. Or people who had been through traumatic events. Not for a 4.2 GPA student who had lived a charmed life–I had a sound mind. Right? There’s no way I could’ve had depression….

So this was the moment I realized, yes, I have depression. And out of sheer longing to be happy in the presence of my horses again, I swallowed my pride and went to the university health center the very next Monday and began the long process (years) of diagnosis (turns out it’s type 2 bipolar disorder) and finding the exact right cocktail and dosages of meds that work for me.

And now we’ve never been better. Just one more way Shorty (probably literally) saved my life and continued/continues to make it better.