#sab kaz

[jahayla-writes]

Do you think that Kaz would use toys and stuff on reader since he can't get rid of his touch aversion so easily and still craves her?

Warning: NO smut is below, but discussion relating to how Kaz would handle sex & mentions of touch aversion. Please read at your own discretion 💜

I can see him doing that once he gets comfortable enough with the reader to enter that level of intimacy.

For Kaz it’s not just sex and physical contact that’s difficult.

It’s also vulnerability and emotional intimacy that he struggles with.

It’ll take him awhile to get comfortable in those areas of the relationship before he’d be able to truly desire to become that intimately physical and then to get comfortable doing so.

That being said, I do think once he gets to the point where he starts to have those desires, he would look for ways to help the reader find pleasure until he could offer it himself.

It would be far more intimate than that behavior would normally be in most relationships given how intense it would be for Kaz (and how considerate he would be to put those feelings aside for the reader’s sake).

I don’t think he’d particularly love it, as we’ve seen he does want to eventually get to being okay with physical contact with others. And as such, I don’t think he’d find it to be enough (and would probably be hard on himself over needing to use them) in the long run.

But I think he would find it to be a good middle ground/interim solution until he healed enough to go further.

I hope that answers your question! 🖤

[bankofwildflowers]

That whole scene with the poison and the butterflies and the hallucinations is so fucking funny and still so heartwrenching for a number of reasons like

1. Wylan passive aggressively talking loudly to BUTTERFLIES about love, hoping jesper will hear, while jesper is actively trying not to die at that very instant

2. Basically Wylan fangirling about science while his friends are fighting for their lives skshdhd

3. Why were Inej and Jesper having a grand time in their dreams, meeting jesper's mother and seeing a vulnerable Kaz, while Kaz and tolya are having the life beaten out of them by jordie and tamar lmao??? Why was it so polar opposite help?!

4. Wylan's little hammer 🥺

5. The 5 seconds where inej wakes up and whispers Kaz? in the softest voice And at the EXACT SAME INSTANT wylan is yelling "jesper???" Dead. I am dead. (It's at 38:25 remaining)

6. Wylan giving the butterfly to inej with "take this, eat it." And then explaining himself with "that...that that might sound strange" but Inej put it in her mouth without question with the first four words only. She trusts him so much. I'm unwell

7. Jordie, screaming, "what is the worth of life if you have no one left to fight for?", on a cold, dark, harsh night and then the shot immediately cutting to the opposite colours,a warm candle burning behind inej as she frantically says wake up wake up. The colour contrast. The implied meaning that there IS someone to fight for. Im going feral over this

In conclusion. There is no conclusion there is only equal parts suffering and love in my heart for thee characters

[assassin1513]

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