Hi. I don't mean to be annoying but do you have any bunker fics with sick/hurting/lonely Cas ? Cas feels like a burden or that he doesn't belong there and Dean feels guilty ? Or Dean lashes out or jokes about something and it hurts Castiel's feelings ?
Hi again! Sorry for the wait on this–wanted to make sure the members of our discord had a chance to see this request after it was passed along, and come up with recs. :)
Now, some of these vary in themes and moods, so I can’t guarantee that Cas is sick/hurting/lonely in all of them, but the general idea of most of these is sad!Cas in the bunker! I’m also including some happier bunker fics, in case you could use some lighter fics to break up all of the heavier ones. (I was going to link these in a separate list, but between not being sure what would go where, and not having enough happy bunker fics for a full list - this ended up being easier. Hope that’s okay!)
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This One’s For You, Dean by @envydean
Ten years. He’s been in love with Dean for ten years, and who even knows if Dean had ever thought about him like that. He wonders about moments, specific moments between them. The times Sam has been out getting food or even just putting explicit trust in one another.
He Can’t Sleep by @60r3d0m
“I wish I could stand,” Cas says.“Yeah,” Dean says.Cas holds up his hand, flexes it, stares and then drops it.“This weakness is unsettling. I can’t—I can’t even hold a pitcher of water, Dean.”Dean makes a small sound in his throat, a non-committal hum.He’s done soaping up Cas’ hair. He grabs the sponge at his side and starts to scrub at Cas’ skin, up along his arms, his neck, down his chest. When he runs it up his legs, to his thighs, Cas shudders and then there’s a hand cupping Dean’s cheek, cold and dripping water and soap, and Dean falters, looks at him for the first time.“Will you sleep with me?” Cas says. “Tonight?”Dean swallows.He says yes.After Lucifer’s possession, Castiel stops talking.
Dislocation by @60r3d0m
After the sun is restored and the Woman of Letters banishes Castiel, he falls and becomes human, lost and alone in a place far from home. Four hundred and fifty-one days later, Sam finds him.He tells Castiel that Dean is alive.So they go. They go and they arrive at the bunker and Sam’s acting strange and there’s something that he’s not telling Castiel, something about Dean.And then Castiel finally reunites with Dean.And there is something about Dean.Something about Dean that has Dean pulling Castiel into tight embraces, something about Dean that has Dean running his thumb across Castiel’s cheek with a tender look in his eyes, and something about Dean that has Dean shaking when Castiel says certain things to him, things that are normal, things that should not affect him this way.There is something about Dean that no one is telling him.
Sweater Weather by Lies_Unfurl
Castiel’s fashion sense has… changed, ever since he came back from the Empty human. And Dean doesn’t like it. Not that he cares what Castiel wears or anything. He’s just trying to be a good guy who helps his friend dress in a way that’ll eventually get him laid.
Right?
Cuckoo and Nest by komodobits
For a long time, Castiel thought that every earthly possession other than the immediately necessary was excess to requirement. But Dean – Dean who named his car, who keeps a photograph of his mother in his wallet, some thirty-plus years after her death, who still has the crumpled ‘Do Not Disturb’ sign with a sleeping pelican emblazoned on it from the Microtel outside of Roanoke where he first kissed Castiel, clumsy and unsure, under the unsteady fluorescence of an exhausted bathroom bulb – is sentimental.
It puzzles Castiel, where Dean draws the line between what is meaningful and what it is worthless.
(And now some fics that tend toward the lighter side. :) )
Castiel’s Breaking Point by @suckerfordeansfreckles
Castiel has been keeping quiet for four weeks, when he finally runs out of patience.
Four weeks of him shoving the tiny, velvety box out of the way when grabbing his socks, suppressing his anger about Dean’s apparent inability to find a good hiding place or to just think about who he shares his room- and sock drawer- with.Four weeks of him waiting for Dean to pop the big question.Four weeks of his mood progressively turning gloomier…
Not the Same by @cutelittlekittykorner
Cas keeps popping into the bunker at the most random times to not ask Dean something. Will he ever nut up and say what’s on his mind or is he just trying to see how many random appearances of trench-coated suit-wearing angels it takes to give a human a heart attack?
You Ain’t Empty by @casbeanie
“C'mon, Cas. For once in our fucking lives we got nothing to worry about, and you’re sitting there, brooding. So tell me what’s got your panties in a twist.”
“Nothing. Nothing and no one have ever twisted my underwear. Maybe that’s the problem.”
Orison by @jimminovak
Dean wants to wake up with Cas pressing his face into his chest, muffling a grumpy protest at the early morning—hair in wild locks on his naked skin so close that Dean could press his lips into them. He wants to pull Cas close and trace patterns on his back, or gently nudge his side until he’d start squirming and chuckling, still half asleep as he’d roll off Dean’s chest, only to snuggle closer a moment later.
