So I am a stoner. Not for the fun, but mostly for mental health purpose. It helps me cope sometimes and it's just benificial in a good way and not so much as addiction.
Obviously tomorrow (technically today cus it's midnight) is the big day for weed smoking. I haven't smoked up in 47 days so I'm pretty excited. My city has a huge thing in the middle of downtown.
Well I'm worried and am needing to think about what I can, and what I will do if I see any of the three main guys that trigger me. I need to not run, but also not fight. it also all depends which one and how I react.
We will put them in order between 1,2,3 so it's easier for me to tell which is which without giving names. Confidentiality. I'm anonymous for a reason.
So let's start with #1. He's less triggering then the others, I've become to get used to him being around. He's literally everywhere. Plus he's usually to focused on drugs it seems now a days, more then anything else.
If I see him I was thinking it wouldn't to a point. If he comes over and starts chatting, I'll stay but if I start to feel my anxiety peak I'll just say I'm going for a walk; or even just go talk to someone else. If I see him with my friends maybe I can come overstart, small talk, nothing much then kinda push him to the back of my mind. If he still becomes to much, do the first two escape options to get myself ok.
#2 will for sure be harder to deal with. With everything that has happened with him. He is a manipulator and I can't be reeled back into that again. I have a few options here. For sure if he's with my friends to wait till he leaves, I shouldn't be anywhere near him at all. If he approaches, I can either walk away if I see him coming or tell him to leave me alone. I cannot I repeat CANNOT fall for his manipulating words and sob stories. He is not someone I need to have around for my well being.
#3 will be the worst. Honestly is pretty dangerous too. How I put it though is I can't hide from everything forever, especially since I don't even know if he will be there. Why waste a good 420 hiding when I can take the precautions and have a safety plan. If I spot him anywhere or if I suddenly see him within the group I'm in I walk to another group. I watch for signs of anything. If I see any warnings. I call parkside, and stay with the crowd. keep deep breathing it's ok.
