That was the sweatiest dance class(es) ever. So fucking humid in the studio. 😩 but it was good everyone was happy to see me and the other instructor Clara was especially and kept checking if I was gonna be back and coming regularly. I didn’t cry once so that’s a win, take that depression!!! I caught up, too, so I’m happy. I told the main instructor about why I wasn’t there, how I have depression and took the week to take care of myself and he understood and checked in with me today but not in a overly nice way yk? Ugh. I could tell people wanted to ask but didn’t want to pressure me, I’m still EMOtional but it will pass with time and I’ll be able to open up to them all just so they know for the future. I’m also glad my whole team wasn’t there as those who were missing would’ve been hugging me and worriedly asking where I’ve been and such. 😭💖
There’s a social on Saturday at our studio and while I’m working I can probably make it for performances and social dancing after work. Clara asked me specifically if I was going or not 😢, and about Thursday, too. It’s nice to know I was missed by them. I missed them, too, but when I’m that deep in my depressive funk it’s important I take time for my mental health. And I’m glad I did. I also didn’t want to be a black cloud around practice, and even though I felt like that at times I snapped myself out of it. I’m fired up about it dance all over again haha. I’m excited for this week to unfold. x