forever rotating the idea of samluciferjack in my head like a damn microwave.....
like imagine this fucked up dynamic of sam and lucifer with all their history of torture in the cage, jack and lucifer with the latter being an unknown being (aka able to be molded into what he wants to portray) in jack's life, and sam and jack with all this fragile love between them—not fragile in that it can be broken but fragile in that it can be hurt like a butterfly. latch on too tight and lose a wing.
imagining all of them put together with all the love, possession, devotion, obsession, fondness, fear put up to 1000 in a big stew of emotions. yum <3
You all's Samjack brainrot took over me, so imagine before their realitionship started sometimes Jack would (innocently) hugs behind Sam and say stuff he don't really understand like "I don't like the way my dad looks at you" then it turns to "But maybe I understand him" and Sam just freezes in place.
Jack never does these things when Dean is around, not on purpose, but he knows deep down that Dean won't like his behavior.
Omg YOUR MIND!!! Full thoughts under a cut because they are kinda dark.
Jack being like a kid in that he doesn’t know what attraction is but he’s experiencing it and when he says things about it that lack of understanding makes it come across kind of awful. Especially if his basis for “person who wants to have sex with Sam” is Lucifer. He’ll think “wanting to fuck this person means wanting to rape them” because he doesn’t have a broader framework even if he doesn’t really feel that way.
And then with Jack knowing instinctually to hide it from Dean… the way that Dean canonically mistreats Jack and doesn’t trust him and the way Sam tries to protect Jack. I think in this case Sam would feel even more like he needs to protect Jack bc he would also know that Dean would be pissed if he heard Jack say he understands how Lucifer feels about Sam, but then if Sam ever said something out loud to Jack like “it’s okay that you feel that way but it has to be our secret you can’t tell Dean or he’ll get angry” Sam would feel like HE’S the creep.
meee! i want to know all of your thoughts on samjack.
just ramble to me, i really don’t have a specific thing about them in mind.
- @sunriserae
hiii <33
okay SO I kinda just wrote some of my hcs down :)) tw under the cut for nsfw, noncon
sam only lets jack top at first, too scared to hurt him or take from him no matter how much he wants to do both and eventually after a long heartfelt talk with jack he finally lets jack bottom and jack comes untouched
they cuddle and touch each other CONSTANTLY. jack is very touchy with him, and sam gets used to it and starts to crave it. cuddles on the couch, hand holding, massages, you name it
along those same lines (as we have discussed in the discord before) sam is very self conscious about their PDA in public and jack takes it very much to heart and sam has to have a talk/convince him that he does in fact love jack and wants to shower him in attention but being in public makes him uncomfortable bc he doesn't want to be seen as a perv
in a world where it's just sam and jack together and not all four of them (depressing world imo) dean and cas are against their relationship which makes sam feel even more guilty
the fic from @panicroomsammy where lucifer makes sam and jack fuck each other while he watches just. I think about it everyday (affectionately)
also this web weave just. *screams forever into the void*
that's all I can think of for now but thank u for letting me ramble about them <33 love them forever and ever
Okay here’s my absolutely awful samjack thought that I’ve been spinning around in my brain:
Y’know how Sam (and Dean) sometimes gets mistaken for a perv/predator/etc. by random civilians? I’m thinking of in Lebanon when their friends forgot them and it was like the bank or post office lady was like get away from me you’re a creep. And other instances that I’m forgetting but I know it happens a lot. Anyway it seems like the things Sam says/does in those situations pretty obviously bring about those responses in ways that could be anticipated. He always cringes afterwards like he realized how his behavior came across and knowing how he’s always saying he’s impure/there’s something inherently wrong with him I think that these instances make him feel those people are right and he is a creep. So I think that he would feel this way about his interactions with Jack, regardless of whether anything sexual ever happens between them. He’d be like “don’t screw up this kid or you’re a bad person,” but he self sabotages and brings about the things he wants to avoid like he does in those other situations. I also think that the reason he can come across as a creep to people is because of his trauma and the way that people will think people with PTSD/other mental illnesses arising from trauma are weird. And of course a lot of that trauma is from Lucifer. So I think he would feel like Lucifer made him the way that he is in this specific sense. He would see himself doing things that Lucifer does because they spent so long together and he’d be like oh no I’m doing what he does I’m exactly like him I’m evil. So when it comes to Lucifer’s son all of this would be multiplied times a thousand. Sam wants to protect Jack from Lucifer but there’s so much of Lucifer in Sam that Sam can’t protect Jack from the parts of him that have been influenced by Lucifer. So then if Jack expresses attraction to Sam he’ll be like “it’s my fault I fucked him up I made him want me” whether this is true or not.
Apologies if none of this makes sense I’ve done five pre law assignments today and my brain is soup 👍
THE CYCLES !!! THE TRAUMA !!!! THE SELF LOATHING !!!!!
I don't even have anything to add really this is just. mwah chefs kiss. you absolutely nailed it and made me go 😵💫😵💫😵💫
I loveeee guilty!sam when it comes to samjack.... and jack just loves him so much and doesn't UNDERSTAND why sam doesn't like him in the same way, did he do something bad, is he bad? when in reality Sam's internal monolog is "oh god I fucked him up I messed up so bad oh god oh fuck"
