to love me is to suffer me

neptune / she-they

[holyfreaks]

hi! im neptune or nep for short!

she/they. 25. queer.

have and will post nsfw and dead dove topics. continue at your own risk.

half fandom half aesthetic blog. basically just what interests me

we respect and love trans people, sex workers, fat people, perverts, and overall freaks to society here <3

I tag [trigger] tw. please respectfully let me know if you want something tagged but keep in mind this is an adult blog

feel free to spam like/rb, send asks, etc let's interact this is tumblr baby

welcome <3

ao3 account is holyfreaks

old ao3 account (currently inactive)

pillowfort account is holyfreaks

currently mod these communities: dead dove writers, spncest, the cage

sam and dean mini event 2024 masterlist

my writing / my edits

family tree 'verse masterlist

2025 kinktober masterlist

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[heatwa-ves]

romance is so fucking boring why don't you kill and eat eachother instead

[vincentlauria-archive-deactivat]

richard siken “snow and dirty rain”

[persianmom-deactivated20260602]

hate that I was understanding when I should’ve just been a cunt

[yourthirdparent]

[bloodstainedgauntlet]

whats that kink called that you get from reading too much fantasy lit as a child that makes you want to be tortured in front of someone who loves you so you can see the pleading desperation in their eyes and hear how much they love you in between the cracks of their voice and really truly believe they would do anything to save you. also you get to look so cool and brave and covered in blood and soooo able to withstand pain haha no just me? ok

[charlieism]

all my girls with bellies that stick out, youre cute as FUCK your body is beautiful and you deserve high self esteem and love

[vamplire]

vampires kissing the spot they’re about to bite has me nodding my head like yup that’s the good shit right there

[holyfreaks]

moaning while giving head 🤝 vampires moaning while feeding

[persianmom-deactivated20260602]

you must blog like your pussy depends on it

[orteil42]

given the current climate this pride especially i feel i must mention that i love my trans friends, i stand with trans people in the fight against transphobic legislation and those who would enforce it, and this blog is not a good place for you to be if you do not vibe with that

[rotserah]

have you seen me?

[backroadcorpses]

sammygirl☺️☺️

[fforsythiaaa]

Once when I was in undergrad, someone described something as “problematic” in class and our professor was like, “That’s cool, but ‘problematic’ doesn’t really mean anything. It means that the thing you’re describing has a problem, and in and of itself that’s not bad. Art, especially, should always have problems, or else it’s not interesting and not art, either. It sounds like you’re trying to say that this is bad, but you don’t want to say ‘bad.’ Is that right?”

So from then on whenever one of us called something problematic, he would make us talk it out until we could name the “bad” thing we were hinting at. In this particular class, 7/10 it was some type of oppression, and the remainder was like, “I’m uncomfortable because this is very new/confusing/pushing boundaries that made me feel safe.”

Once we stopped calling things “problematic” and stopping at that, class got way more interesting and... we all had to say, like, “that’s racist” or “that’s misogynistic” or “ew capitalism gross” out loud, which a lot of us had never done in a classroom before. Or we had to be like, “Uhhh... I’m not sure what’s so bad?” and confront our own beliefs and that was maybe even more useful.

Anyway. Whenever I see the word problematic, I can’t help but think of this professor being like, “Good starting point, now let’s get specific.” I think when we have to commit to saying “that’s ___” it requires a lot more careful thought about the truth and impact and complexities of whatever we’re claiming. Sometimes there really is some bullshit afoot, and also sometimes it’s art, and it should be full of problems, because that’s what art is.

[sammyscumbagfvck]

samdean sleepy cuddlefucking because they’re too tired to actually fuck, and too needy to just go to sleep

[holyfreaks]

yea but did YOUR fwb ever tell you to make sure the moles on your back get checked regularly ? didn't think so

[achillesinhighheels]

Training my nervous system to choose an unfamiliar heaven instead of a familiar hell